Once again, I stumble...
I had to do another post. I remembered old live journal and looked it up to read all my old posts. It's been about 5 years PLUS since I regularly wrote in it. I was a dumb teenager, so unhappy with everything and I had so much hatred! Reading back on it now, it makes me almost sick to think of how hateful I was. I blamed everything on everyone else, when in reality I was the one causing myself so much pain! It hurts to read the things I said about my family. I love my family more than anything and if I could have just known then what I know now, my outlook on life would be so much different! I don't regret the events that happened. If they hadn't happened the way they did I don't think I would have met Casey. He wouldn't have pulled me away from the people I spent my time with, or the bad habit I spent my money on. He saved my life, and now I am happily married to him and we are working on making our life better and trying to get where we want to go. I am so happy and I love myself and the people in my life. Obviously, I have my downer days, but who doesn't? All I can do is apologize for the things I've said in the past and the things I've done. I know no one reads this, but it makes me feel better.