falling for you, falling for you, i fell for you.
Well it's been quite a while. Nothing really new. Everything's still kind of a mess. I just hate the fact that you can be so close to someone and then the next thing you know, someone your really close to took that person from you.It's really hard to sit and watch the guy who used to be mine be with this person. I just wish everything would get back to normal, because i'm really not myself latley. I guess this all just proves how much he means to me.
Well anyways, this Friday me and my best friend Amanda<3 are supposed to go to the races and hang out with some kewl kids* Megan and Megan* and lots of other neat people. But then again, its just another opportunity for me to get hurt.I hope i'll have fun and not worrie too much about everything. I normally have fun at the races, so we'll see.
Me and Danielle start our college class Thursday, I'm kind of nervous :x It shouldn't be that bad, and if it takes some time off of my college time then awesome :) Only thing that sucks about this whole deal is that we're going to be taking our finals when i have the course, so it's going to be hard to study for both at the same time.
Speaking of finals, theres only like what 10 days left of school? thats awesome. I can't wait until summer it should be a fun time. I don't have a job tho :( which sucks because everyone pretty much does so i'm going to be bored during the day. Another sucky thing is Amanda has a job babysitting for her dad's friend which means shes going to be in Windsor all week and only comes home on the weekend :( i'll miss her lots. I really need to find a job, so if anyone knows of anything let me know:)
Things i miss the most about him
- His amazing smile
- The way he would always make me laugh even if i had the worst day ever and didn't want to
- The way he laughed
- The way he smelled
- The way he would always listen to what i had to say
- The way he would never laugh at me for saying something stupid
- The way he would always tell me i was beautiful
- The way he always told me how he felt
- The way he would tell me he missed me everytime he talked to me
- The way he made me get little butterflies in my stomach everytime i saw/talked to him.
- The way he always beleived in me