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Im sick again, plus the roads are bad so I didnt go to school even though we had school. My ma called and said we shouldnt have even had school. Tomorrow Im missing in the morning because of my doctors appointment, I get my xray results.
Its so ironic how girls change for guys. Ive known some people that have changed everything about themselves all for guys, their looks, the clothes they wear, their "style", their interests, the music they like. The girls that act slutty just because they think it appeals to guys, get into things they werent ever into before. Ive even noticed things as how they change how they talk and their voice just to sound, I dont know, more "cute" to boys even though its annoying? I dont even know why someone can sacrifice their whole selves and not be ashamed of themselves for being so fake? Shouldnt the guy like you for who you are, not who you TRY to be to impress them. I dont know, it doesnt make sense to me. Sorry, kind of a random thing, me and my friend were talking about it the other night. I know a lot of girls that become so infatuated w/ their boyfriends that they DEPEND on them for their own sanity/happiness (sad in itself) but I also know a couple of people that arent even themselves as well. Id rather DEPEND on someone for my sanity as sad as that is then not be myself. To know that I mutated myself and a boy liked who I mutated into would make me sick because Id know Id never be able to be myself. But you know, whatever floats peoples boats, itll come back to them later.
I have work from 3-8 tonight, not too bad despite being sick but my meds should kick in by then. When I go to the doctors tomorrow Im going to ask if I should be put on more antianxiety pills to balance out my brain chemistry because I think its still fucked up from the Prozac though I was only on it for 2 weeks. Ive never been so paranoid/anxious/nervous around people in my life and its rediculous. Prozac was the worst thing in the world, but my friend takes it and apparently it helped him out amazingly good...
Its so ironic how girls change for guys. Ive known some people that have changed everything about themselves all for guys, their looks, the clothes they wear, their "style", their interests, the music they like. The girls that act slutty just because they think it appeals to guys, get into things they werent ever into before. Ive even noticed things as how they change how they talk and their voice just to sound, I dont know, more "cute" to boys even though its annoying? I dont even know why someone can sacrifice their whole selves and not be ashamed of themselves for being so fake? Shouldnt the guy like you for who you are, not who you TRY to be to impress them. I dont know, it doesnt make sense to me. Sorry, kind of a random thing, me and my friend were talking about it the other night. I know a lot of girls that become so infatuated w/ their boyfriends that they DEPEND on them for their own sanity/happiness (sad in itself) but I also know a couple of people that arent even themselves as well. Id rather DEPEND on someone for my sanity as sad as that is then not be myself. To know that I mutated myself and a boy liked who I mutated into would make me sick because Id know Id never be able to be myself. But you know, whatever floats peoples boats, itll come back to them later.
I have work from 3-8 tonight, not too bad despite being sick but my meds should kick in by then. When I go to the doctors tomorrow Im going to ask if I should be put on more antianxiety pills to balance out my brain chemistry because I think its still fucked up from the Prozac though I was only on it for 2 weeks. Ive never been so paranoid/anxious/nervous around people in my life and its rediculous. Prozac was the worst thing in the world, but my friend takes it and apparently it helped him out amazingly good...