The long hard road out of hell.
For those of you who don't already know or even care to know. My world has gone to shit.l I have somehow managed to take my life and completely destroy it and lose everything.
My family, my job and the one thing that held my life together........my car.
My car was stolen last Thursday night. Perfect timing really. Someone broke out the passenger side window, punched in the ignition and took off with it.
The police found it a few days later abandoned in an alley somewhere in Santa Ana. They took everything in the car even the trash I had in there. My cds, some clothes, shoes......my baby book. I had some stuff in there from Texas that had been in there from the move. It's all gone.
I'm not really too concerned about that stuff but it's still pretty hard to stomach the fact that it's gone. I didn't really have much to begin with, now I really don't have much.
I have officially hit rock bottom. Never thought I would ever say that but I am.
I could have made it out here if only my car had not been stolen, now I'm really not to sure if I'm going to make it afterall. My parents want me to move. They think I need to get away from everything out here. I couldn't agree more but I don't think that moving is the answer. I can do this on my own I just wish they would undestand that.
They really aren't making this any easier on me. They won't help me out at all unless I move and I refuse to do it. Because I refused to move they diecided to sell what was left of the car for $800 and keep the money.
My mother and I are no longer speaking. I got a message from her this morning saying how she didn't want me as a daughter. There isn't much I can do about that. It's going to be really hard to forgive them for this. They continue to do stuff like this to me. It's always been this way. They will give me something then completely take it away. That's worse than just not getting it at all. That makes it hard to appreciate things they do for me when I am always worried it's going to get taken from me once again. bleh. that's a whole another story.
Yup. so I don't have a car anymore, don't have money and barely have a place to live. I have a feeling my life is going to get really interesting. I'm anxious to see where I will end up.
You kind of need a car to make it down here. I wasn't built to rely on other people for rides. Some people are capable of getting rides anywhere they want, whenever they want. I am not. It is going to be really hard on me but it's what I have to do in order to stay in california and pursue the future that I want for myself. It's time to actually truly start living for me and not for everybody else. Because I guess what it comes down to is in the end all you have is yourself........right?
My family, my job and the one thing that held my life together........my car.
My car was stolen last Thursday night. Perfect timing really. Someone broke out the passenger side window, punched in the ignition and took off with it.
The police found it a few days later abandoned in an alley somewhere in Santa Ana. They took everything in the car even the trash I had in there. My cds, some clothes, shoes......my baby book. I had some stuff in there from Texas that had been in there from the move. It's all gone.
I'm not really too concerned about that stuff but it's still pretty hard to stomach the fact that it's gone. I didn't really have much to begin with, now I really don't have much.
I have officially hit rock bottom. Never thought I would ever say that but I am.
I could have made it out here if only my car had not been stolen, now I'm really not to sure if I'm going to make it afterall. My parents want me to move. They think I need to get away from everything out here. I couldn't agree more but I don't think that moving is the answer. I can do this on my own I just wish they would undestand that.
They really aren't making this any easier on me. They won't help me out at all unless I move and I refuse to do it. Because I refused to move they diecided to sell what was left of the car for $800 and keep the money.
My mother and I are no longer speaking. I got a message from her this morning saying how she didn't want me as a daughter. There isn't much I can do about that. It's going to be really hard to forgive them for this. They continue to do stuff like this to me. It's always been this way. They will give me something then completely take it away. That's worse than just not getting it at all. That makes it hard to appreciate things they do for me when I am always worried it's going to get taken from me once again. bleh. that's a whole another story.
Yup. so I don't have a car anymore, don't have money and barely have a place to live. I have a feeling my life is going to get really interesting. I'm anxious to see where I will end up.
You kind of need a car to make it down here. I wasn't built to rely on other people for rides. Some people are capable of getting rides anywhere they want, whenever they want. I am not. It is going to be really hard on me but it's what I have to do in order to stay in california and pursue the future that I want for myself. It's time to actually truly start living for me and not for everybody else. Because I guess what it comes down to is in the end all you have is yourself........right?