Is it really just a long line of selfish need?
*Friends - Why do we need them? to get away from that which is our family to have some one who understands us, to have some one who cares. To have some one to talk to about what we care about. If we cared about people who didnt have common interests with us i suppose then we would be all friends, i suppose we would all get along and be at peace. How nice. Maybe to bond with a fellow of which stands in the same political spot as one. It seems in the end though it is to leave them behind when some one better comes along. The friendship can become awfully one sided when one finds a significant other.
*Family - why do we need them? to love us, to be there when we fall, to be there when our friends forget us. To take care of us when we are sick, without money, homeless, acept us for who we are. (in some cases).
*Enemies - They seem to make the most sense non selfishly. Having enemies does not make some one bad. If for the correct reasons it can make one to be seen as "good or self sufficient" in anothers eyes. We expect nothing from an enemy. We dont hold them accountable for any thing pertaining to us. They mean nothing, they do nothing for us. Every one else in between these "I know of them but i dont hate them or like them people" These are the people we leave neutral until we may need something from them. If for some reason we thought we didnt or wouldnt ever need them then i tend to believe we would make enemies of them.
I find i fit none of the above. I dont need any one. I want to not be needed to.I want to find some one who dosen need me but wants me. If i bother finding some one at all. Im hurting alot right now. I feel like i have the weight of societies issues on my shoulders right now. Im going to cry. I want to be alone and as self sufficient as i claim to be but am i? Do i need that hug once in a while? I feel like if some one were to hug me now i would melt in their arms from being so cold for so long. Meaning if some one who was not a "lover" a "mother" or "sister" likea friend that just hugged me because they wanted to be close to me or show me affection male or female, i think i would melt. Some times i think i may not feel it. Like i am stone or some thing.
Wow this is the first thing i have written in a while that is really journally. Im so alone but i think i want it that way. Why and how did i get this way? SOME ONE ANSWER ME!!! WHAT IS THE SECRET!
*Family - why do we need them? to love us, to be there when we fall, to be there when our friends forget us. To take care of us when we are sick, without money, homeless, acept us for who we are. (in some cases).
*Enemies - They seem to make the most sense non selfishly. Having enemies does not make some one bad. If for the correct reasons it can make one to be seen as "good or self sufficient" in anothers eyes. We expect nothing from an enemy. We dont hold them accountable for any thing pertaining to us. They mean nothing, they do nothing for us. Every one else in between these "I know of them but i dont hate them or like them people" These are the people we leave neutral until we may need something from them. If for some reason we thought we didnt or wouldnt ever need them then i tend to believe we would make enemies of them.
I find i fit none of the above. I dont need any one. I want to not be needed to.I want to find some one who dosen need me but wants me. If i bother finding some one at all. Im hurting alot right now. I feel like i have the weight of societies issues on my shoulders right now. Im going to cry. I want to be alone and as self sufficient as i claim to be but am i? Do i need that hug once in a while? I feel like if some one were to hug me now i would melt in their arms from being so cold for so long. Meaning if some one who was not a "lover" a "mother" or "sister" likea friend that just hugged me because they wanted to be close to me or show me affection male or female, i think i would melt. Some times i think i may not feel it. Like i am stone or some thing.
Wow this is the first thing i have written in a while that is really journally. Im so alone but i think i want it that way. Why and how did i get this way? SOME ONE ANSWER ME!!! WHAT IS THE SECRET!