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well this weekend was great. my sister started learning how to snowboard. i had a great time meeting a lot of new kids. and the runs were pretty awesome up at smugglers notch. i went down this closed trail at the end of the day saturday. it was amazing, the best run i have ever been on. a foot and a half of untouched powder. wide flowing turns, snow flying 10 feet in the air with each one. spectacular. but here's the catch. a ski patrol guy saw me go down, and cut me off at the bottom. he clipped my ticket for the day. but told me that i could go to the ski patrol place and see if i would get it back. so after he said that i was happy again. the rest of the run was just as amazing, so it was totally worth it. and i got a lift ticket for the next day anyways.
as much as a enjoyed the weekend half of me didnt want to be there. this whole thing sucks...
it wasn't supposed to be anything but i wanted it to be more. i miss court, miss her smile, just being with eachother, i knew i would. but she lives 4 hours away most the year...
even if this isn't one sided like i think it is, i wouldnt want to put her through trying to make something work when we never got to see eachother. i don't know, just what's been on my mind. friends with benefits never works, if that's even what it was, i don't know, i didnt want to say anything for the fear of her not wanting to spend time with me before she left.
im just rambling
as much as a enjoyed the weekend half of me didnt want to be there. this whole thing sucks...
it wasn't supposed to be anything but i wanted it to be more. i miss court, miss her smile, just being with eachother, i knew i would. but she lives 4 hours away most the year...
even if this isn't one sided like i think it is, i wouldnt want to put her through trying to make something work when we never got to see eachother. i don't know, just what's been on my mind. friends with benefits never works, if that's even what it was, i don't know, i didnt want to say anything for the fear of her not wanting to spend time with me before she left.
im just rambling