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im in such a bitchy mood.

i did nothing on the 4th of july.
no one called me,
and the ones who i called are apparently too busy.

i was going through my phone and realized i really had noone to call.
my dad is pissed at me because i didnt do anything w him today for the 4th.
i was too depressed i guess?
i just stayed on my room.
emoness came aboard.
fucking hit my pillow so hard i hurt my hand w the wall.
it felt good though.

yet, i feel like crap now.
and Dj?
fuck him.
last night phone call he told me i was going "too strong"
[um, ok.]
and that he wasnt sure about a long distance relationship
[we live 34 minutes away]
but i guess thats far when none of us drives.

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the only thing that feels good right now are violent lyrics
and hard beats.

i want to just dance and jump and have a great time.
Fuck life. Hardcore.

Edit.

depression depression
go away.

Give me a reason why shouldnt i just die today.
my heart aches.
some say that one wants what one cant have.
[very true]
i just want to feel his face.
his hand.
his love.

but I cunt.
I simply cunt.