tonight is the night
tonight is the night where i came to the realization that i did not want to look the way i do anymore. im talking about my weight problem. all my friends are nice about it,but im tired of being the fat kid. it sucks. and plus im getting older(obviously) and it will be harder for me to keep off the pounds. so this is a new goal i want to reach. i want my old self back. just without the drugs. lol. so tonight i started jogging and doing crunches and situps again. i tried pushups but my arm cracked every time i went back up. i will have to try those again later. it was the same arm i broke twice earlier this year. so i will remain with the running and the abdominal exercising til i can buy some hand weights. i am gonna do my best to eat right as well. i do have junk food in my fridge that i will have to get rid of first. but this is a pay week, so then i can start to buy the healthy stuff again. i do eat a lot of veggie food and what not, but i need more milk and fruit in my diet. and def less bread and candy. i cant wait for friday to get here. so i can go buy some good, healthy food. so this also means that i am def going to give up drinking for good hopefully. lol. something i def dont want to get into at all. i just hope my work is not so boring that i want to eat m&m's all day. i will just have to drink water and bring apples to eat or something. this is going to cost me some money as well. so buying frivolous things such as cd's will have to come to a near halt while i am trying to reach my goal. but i will have to continue on with my studies that start nov 10th. well i am off to read til i fall asleep. have a great day.