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so yeah. not much has been going on in my life. alot to be more exact though. things have been running and running around in my head. i'm working the full day at work like im supposed to and taking it more serious. i applied for college and a bunch of jobs. hopefully i'll get a new one soon. so i'll have two and be more responsible. you know, change who i was. its actually time for me to grow up and it took alot for me to see that. welcome to the real life allison *nods head* i had a conversation with myself while in my room today. i just sat down and kinda started speaking what was on my mind. it cleared alot of things. i've been taking alot of fucking showers every day because they seem to rid my body of the day's presence and starts a new. i just take it from day to day and see what it offers me. if some kind of obstacle comes my way, i stop, think and figure out the best way to overcome it. i know alot of you may think im a little too young to be in love and know that i've found that one person i want to be with for the rest of my life, but too bad, i've found her. i just gotta get her back. and everything i'm doing now is worth it. all the pain, tears and hurting, is totally worth it because i'm becoming a stronger person and a better one at that. there are so many things that i've realized being alone and at home for two weeks or so. i can't act the way i did before and get away with it. that's just not how you treat anything that you love. and all of you who know me, know that i love her. i love her with all my fucking heart and soul.(which, by the way, she has. thank you very fuckin' much =D ) i'm putting things that are important in my life first, like my room, my education and my work. things just follow if they're meant to. not a day goes by without her in my head. not a fuckin' day. and i love it. more than anything. i would throw down my life for this girl. anything she wants, she could have it. i'd give her anything i can. and if i can't get her what she wants, i'll do anything to try. work has been alright. i've been in charge the past few days, so it's given me paperwork and things to do. the boys set up a basketball hoop in the shop and we've been playing horse when we have nothing else to do. its quite fun. i think of them as my closest friends because we always talk about things that are going on in our lives. i think of them as more than my co-workers. its a close little family. and its awesome =) its 10:00 and im still in the mood to just type. about nothing. and everything. im getting my tongue pierced on sunday. i was cleaning my room tonight and i found things that i haven't seen in forever. i'm writing poetry more and focusing on what is going to make me happy. but at the same time, what is also going to make her happy. because she means the world to me. wow, this is alot of writing and i have so much more to say. i hope that i get my car back soon because i dont really want to take the bus to work anymore. my sandisk for my uploading pics to the computer isn't working for some reason. i think its the USB port. i've tried to fix it, but i can't really. so i just used the cord. jen's coming home on sunday. jeez, i haven't seen her in a couple months. well, its almost 10:15 and im kinda in the mood to just go lay down under my electric blanket, open up my book, read and wait for my princess to call me. so, *tips hat* thank you. and good night.