I need some advice....
All names have been changed to protect the innocent, because in all honesty I just don't know what to do anymore, all I know is I need to get the hell out of Connecticut before this place drives me insane....I will be using the phonetic alphabet for people's names:
Person Sierra: Sierra and I have been friends practically since I moved to Virginia, we met via our sisters due to their friendship, and over the years we both admitted at one point in time having feelings for each other. It doesn't help that my mom and her parents both pretty much agree that were destined for each other or some stuff like that, and that at some point in the future after a divorce or two, we're going to wind up being married. I could definitely see it happening, but after my time at home, I'm not really sure if she's right for me, I honestly don't know what to think at the moment because she's my best friend and I love her dearly, but I really just don't think she's right for me....
Person Kilo: AH, now here's an interesting story, Kilo and I met about six years ago this summer at a catholic retreat up at either Longwood or some other college in the western part of the state, regardless, we started talking and wound up going out for awhile. It was rough, we broke up due to distance, and since then have gone out at least two more times, with a few dates and nights where we just hung out in between. I broke it off the first time due to distance, that was my ploy, really I loved the girl but I was too damn afraid to say it, one, and two I was sixteen or seventeen at the time, I really didn't want to be in love. About a year before I joined the Coast Guard I went to go see her at VCU, this is when we had our big argument and an even bigger falling out. I did something rather stupid when we first started dating and continued to do it while we talked, I use to create characters for stories I wrote and used those personalities on AIM to talk to my friends, saying they were friends of mine. I didn't mean to take it as far with Kilo, but I did, they kept talking and I felt like a jackass, because she did find out, and I apologized, but it was beyond too late.
Back in March of this year, I got an unsuspected message on myspace, it was from Kilo, and she wanted to talk, so I sent her my cell phone number, but really didn't expect much to come from it. The next night I went to go see Lucky # Slevin, but I was there relatively early so I was just hanging out in the theatre, my phone was on vibrate when I got a call...I didn't recognize the number, and when I picked up her voice came over the line, I believe shocked was an understatement for what I felt at that moment. Since that night we've met on three separate occasions, the day after my sisters wedding, the night before my brothers’ tool shower, and then this past Wednesday night. Each time I've felt that spark that ignited us in the first place, and I hate to say it, but she's gotten a lot better looking since we first started going out. I honestly don’t know what to do here, I want to be with her again but I don’t want to scare her off, it really does seem like those old feelings are back.
Person Alpha: This is probably one of my more interesting stories, we met my senior year of high school, and I suppose you can say I’ve been holding a flame for her ever since, but I never thought that it would be right. Honestly, I have no problems here because we’d be better friends than anything else, so I don’t know why I’m typing this and protecting this persons’ name.
Person Jackass: Okay, Jackass isn’t in the phonetic alphabet, but to be quite honest, this person has been designated as Jackass of the year, the award winner was already decided, but this person was able to sneak in their last second ballot and won by a landslide. Jackass has been my closest friend in Connecticut, the only person I really trust up this way, and worse off is that she knew this, and I told her the only reasons I was coming back to CT was so we can hang out and work. I called her yesterday on my way back up to Connecticut to see what she was doing for New Years Eve, I was going to see if she wanted to go to Dannyo’s and have a few beers since we didn’t get to hang out for my birthday. This is where everything goes down hill.
Here’s the conversation:
Me: Hey, Jackass (substituting persons name), what’s up?
Jackass: OH, Rob…hey.
Me: That’s a hell of a greeting
Jackass: You didn’t see my myspace did you?
Me: No, why what’s up?
Jackass: Well, ya see Brian(boyfriends name, changed to protect the innocent) is kinda pissed still because we talk so I kinda can’t talk to you for now.
Me: (pause) You gotta be kidding me.
Jackass: Listen Rob, it’s just until I can find some middle ground with him, he won’t even give you a chance.
Me: So wait a second, you’re just gonna toss me aside until you find some sort of middle ground with a guy who thinks your fucking around on him? Jackass, that’s bullshit and you fucking know it.
Jackass: I’m sorry Rob - -
Me: Fuck you *hangs up*
I really don’t think I was being short, I don’t think I’m in the wrong, but now my supposed best friend up here in CT has abandoned me, so now all I have is work. Honestly, this place is getting worse and worse.
So there it is, someone help my ass out…..
Person Sierra: Sierra and I have been friends practically since I moved to Virginia, we met via our sisters due to their friendship, and over the years we both admitted at one point in time having feelings for each other. It doesn't help that my mom and her parents both pretty much agree that were destined for each other or some stuff like that, and that at some point in the future after a divorce or two, we're going to wind up being married. I could definitely see it happening, but after my time at home, I'm not really sure if she's right for me, I honestly don't know what to think at the moment because she's my best friend and I love her dearly, but I really just don't think she's right for me....
Person Kilo: AH, now here's an interesting story, Kilo and I met about six years ago this summer at a catholic retreat up at either Longwood or some other college in the western part of the state, regardless, we started talking and wound up going out for awhile. It was rough, we broke up due to distance, and since then have gone out at least two more times, with a few dates and nights where we just hung out in between. I broke it off the first time due to distance, that was my ploy, really I loved the girl but I was too damn afraid to say it, one, and two I was sixteen or seventeen at the time, I really didn't want to be in love. About a year before I joined the Coast Guard I went to go see her at VCU, this is when we had our big argument and an even bigger falling out. I did something rather stupid when we first started dating and continued to do it while we talked, I use to create characters for stories I wrote and used those personalities on AIM to talk to my friends, saying they were friends of mine. I didn't mean to take it as far with Kilo, but I did, they kept talking and I felt like a jackass, because she did find out, and I apologized, but it was beyond too late.
Back in March of this year, I got an unsuspected message on myspace, it was from Kilo, and she wanted to talk, so I sent her my cell phone number, but really didn't expect much to come from it. The next night I went to go see Lucky # Slevin, but I was there relatively early so I was just hanging out in the theatre, my phone was on vibrate when I got a call...I didn't recognize the number, and when I picked up her voice came over the line, I believe shocked was an understatement for what I felt at that moment. Since that night we've met on three separate occasions, the day after my sisters wedding, the night before my brothers’ tool shower, and then this past Wednesday night. Each time I've felt that spark that ignited us in the first place, and I hate to say it, but she's gotten a lot better looking since we first started going out. I honestly don’t know what to do here, I want to be with her again but I don’t want to scare her off, it really does seem like those old feelings are back.
Person Alpha: This is probably one of my more interesting stories, we met my senior year of high school, and I suppose you can say I’ve been holding a flame for her ever since, but I never thought that it would be right. Honestly, I have no problems here because we’d be better friends than anything else, so I don’t know why I’m typing this and protecting this persons’ name.
Person Jackass: Okay, Jackass isn’t in the phonetic alphabet, but to be quite honest, this person has been designated as Jackass of the year, the award winner was already decided, but this person was able to sneak in their last second ballot and won by a landslide. Jackass has been my closest friend in Connecticut, the only person I really trust up this way, and worse off is that she knew this, and I told her the only reasons I was coming back to CT was so we can hang out and work. I called her yesterday on my way back up to Connecticut to see what she was doing for New Years Eve, I was going to see if she wanted to go to Dannyo’s and have a few beers since we didn’t get to hang out for my birthday. This is where everything goes down hill.
Here’s the conversation:
Me: Hey, Jackass (substituting persons name), what’s up?
Jackass: OH, Rob…hey.
Me: That’s a hell of a greeting
Jackass: You didn’t see my myspace did you?
Me: No, why what’s up?
Jackass: Well, ya see Brian(boyfriends name, changed to protect the innocent) is kinda pissed still because we talk so I kinda can’t talk to you for now.
Me: (pause) You gotta be kidding me.
Jackass: Listen Rob, it’s just until I can find some middle ground with him, he won’t even give you a chance.
Me: So wait a second, you’re just gonna toss me aside until you find some sort of middle ground with a guy who thinks your fucking around on him? Jackass, that’s bullshit and you fucking know it.
Jackass: I’m sorry Rob - -
Me: Fuck you *hangs up*
I really don’t think I was being short, I don’t think I’m in the wrong, but now my supposed best friend up here in CT has abandoned me, so now all I have is work. Honestly, this place is getting worse and worse.
So there it is, someone help my ass out…..