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So I was having a pretty shitty day, just most of the weekend has been shitty...well not really, but this morning (meaning Sunday morning) was shitty, and it completely threw me off my entire feel good mood I had. Friday I went out with Meredith and for some strange reason, we didn't drive each other to insanity, this was a big step in the right direction, BUT don't worry, we took a few steps backwards, but we'll get to that in a bit. Saturday was my wings/beer/football day with some of the guys from work at B-Dubs (Buffalo Wild Wings), and it was cool, Michigan lost, but Notre Dame won, so that's all that really matters. Saturday night I went to Danny O's, this bar over in Shelton, that was until Meredith called me and asked me to come back to her college because she was in a bit of a funk about her mom's surgery on Monday, I understood, sobered up, then drove up there to see her.
Here's where everything starts taking a nose dive. I get there and I get nothing but her bitching at me for something I really didn't understand, so I just went to sleep instead of watching a movie. This morning she tells me she's not sure if she thinks we should be going out or doing anything and I"m just like "Okay, this is a complete 180 from what you told me the other day, but whatever". I'm suppose to spend Christmas with her family this year since I won't be going home, now she's not sure if she wants me there, so I basically said fuck it, I'm not going, I'm gonna spend christmas in my apartment, watching movies, and ignoring the holiday.
So this sent me into my nice little holiday season funk, and the holiday season really hasn't even started. This happened to me last year when I was out in California, though last year it wasn't so bad because I had school and my friends to keep me occupied, this year I'm not so lucky. So I spent most of the day thinking about that, and it sucked, then I had to work the mids tonight, which I wasn't thrilled about to begin with, but hey I'll deal. And here's what threw me off for the entire day....
I was standing at the To Go station in Chili's waiting for my order so I can take it to work with me and eat when I hear a tiny voice coming from my left. I didn't know the kid was talking to me until I looked down at him, he was barely five, but he just looked at me and said "Thank you for your service". I honestly just rose an eyebrow, I mean I couldn't say anything to the kid, I was that stupefied by what happened. I wanted to be like, "Umm...kid, sorry, but I don't work here" but I realized why he was thanking me. I did the dumbest thing in the world though, I gave the kid a cheezy ass grin and a thumbs up. He said bye to me as I was walking towards the door with my food, so I stopped and gave him a high five.
With all the shit that happened while I was down in Virginia, with all the shit I'm dealing with here, with the fact that I'm not going to be anywhere near Virginia for the holidays....it's stuff like what that kid said that picks me up when I'm feeling like shit. I wish more people were like that kid, I think this world would be a little bit better. It's depressing though....that kid will never know how much it meant to me to hear him say that in the middle of all my shit....funny isn't it?
Here's where everything starts taking a nose dive. I get there and I get nothing but her bitching at me for something I really didn't understand, so I just went to sleep instead of watching a movie. This morning she tells me she's not sure if she thinks we should be going out or doing anything and I"m just like "Okay, this is a complete 180 from what you told me the other day, but whatever". I'm suppose to spend Christmas with her family this year since I won't be going home, now she's not sure if she wants me there, so I basically said fuck it, I'm not going, I'm gonna spend christmas in my apartment, watching movies, and ignoring the holiday.
So this sent me into my nice little holiday season funk, and the holiday season really hasn't even started. This happened to me last year when I was out in California, though last year it wasn't so bad because I had school and my friends to keep me occupied, this year I'm not so lucky. So I spent most of the day thinking about that, and it sucked, then I had to work the mids tonight, which I wasn't thrilled about to begin with, but hey I'll deal. And here's what threw me off for the entire day....
I was standing at the To Go station in Chili's waiting for my order so I can take it to work with me and eat when I hear a tiny voice coming from my left. I didn't know the kid was talking to me until I looked down at him, he was barely five, but he just looked at me and said "Thank you for your service". I honestly just rose an eyebrow, I mean I couldn't say anything to the kid, I was that stupefied by what happened. I wanted to be like, "Umm...kid, sorry, but I don't work here" but I realized why he was thanking me. I did the dumbest thing in the world though, I gave the kid a cheezy ass grin and a thumbs up. He said bye to me as I was walking towards the door with my food, so I stopped and gave him a high five.
With all the shit that happened while I was down in Virginia, with all the shit I'm dealing with here, with the fact that I'm not going to be anywhere near Virginia for the holidays....it's stuff like what that kid said that picks me up when I'm feeling like shit. I wish more people were like that kid, I think this world would be a little bit better. It's depressing though....that kid will never know how much it meant to me to hear him say that in the middle of all my shit....funny isn't it?