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it was fun in the beginning, ya kno?
just the attempt to get what i wanted, mayb it would pay off.
i cant stand it anymore. i cant stand waiting for something thats never going to happen. --and if it is then tell me noww-- whether its with guys or any other freaking thing that goes on in my life.
i can't stand crying for the stupidest things, like they actually mean something.
i can't stand holding back on how i feel caz im afraid of what other ppl mite think.
n i dont want to complain, but its gotten to the point where my life seems to be good. and mayb just how i like it- and then one little thing hits me and i break and have to start over from the beginning, and live it all over again. i want someone to take me away from everything- make me forget all the things that hurt me.
i mean i hate to have wishful thinking- but sometimes, thats all thats left. i need you- from all of this. and then sometimes i feel that all my wishful thinking has taken over n im living a lie. and half the time i am. idky im thinking of this all now- seems like a convienient time . mayb if i knew how to spell too- that might help.
ugh for once in my life i want things to go the way i planned- the way i hoped... the way i wanted it to go. without me having to freaking take the risk of losing anything, for once.
i really have no rite to complain, i have a lot goin for me with all the great friends i could ask for. but idk. sometimes .. i just want more
just the attempt to get what i wanted, mayb it would pay off.
i cant stand it anymore. i cant stand waiting for something thats never going to happen. --and if it is then tell me noww-- whether its with guys or any other freaking thing that goes on in my life.
i can't stand crying for the stupidest things, like they actually mean something.
i can't stand holding back on how i feel caz im afraid of what other ppl mite think.
n i dont want to complain, but its gotten to the point where my life seems to be good. and mayb just how i like it- and then one little thing hits me and i break and have to start over from the beginning, and live it all over again. i want someone to take me away from everything- make me forget all the things that hurt me.
i mean i hate to have wishful thinking- but sometimes, thats all thats left. i need you- from all of this. and then sometimes i feel that all my wishful thinking has taken over n im living a lie. and half the time i am. idky im thinking of this all now- seems like a convienient time . mayb if i knew how to spell too- that might help.
ugh for once in my life i want things to go the way i planned- the way i hoped... the way i wanted it to go. without me having to freaking take the risk of losing anything, for once.
i really have no rite to complain, i have a lot goin for me with all the great friends i could ask for. but idk. sometimes .. i just want more