SoMe1 pLeAsE jUsT sHo0t Me!!!
WOW!!! My life has been absolutly out of control latley. Applebee's has been running my life since November--- and recentley it has just gotten to the point that I question why i'm so concerned w/this job?? Like yeah, it's fun and i love the people, and i make the best $ i've ever made, is worth the manipulation? I know it sounds crazy but i'v just been going through a lot of shit with 2 of my managers. I made up with one of them today, she bought me lunch and we apologized to each other,so that's good maybe i'll get my friday night shift back.
In other news--- I hate some of my best friends right now. Honestly, i never thought those particular girls would ever betray me the way that they did last week. It's not that big of a deal -- the issue i guess-- but the result in them opening their mouths was bad enough. When Cash heard all this shit and called me out on it, he unknowingly made me feel like the most horrible thing that has ever walked. I can't explain why it hurt so bad but i know that anyone who was my TRUE friend wouldn't have taken part in it. Lindsy and Ali are a lil different story, they wouldnt have really said nething had they not been questioned by Cash, whose questions, might i add, were provoked by Sara and Bria. So when it all boils down to it, it was them. That sucks........
So neways a friend of mine told me today that she has an eating disorder. And that i'm one of three people that knows about it even though it's been going on for a while. I feel horrible, but in the back of my mind, i suspected it. I wish i could say just one thing to make her realize that it will be okay, but then i realized that i dont even know if it will EVER be okay. I feel so lost, so unprepared for Cancun, and just all together unhappy. Last time Christa was home she talked about going back to one of my Dr.'s w/me. IDK if she even still remembers, but if we were to go this week i think my Dr. would say i was out of my mind.
Winter Break 05' is over-- i worked hard, i played hard----now it's time to return to normal.........
In other news--- I hate some of my best friends right now. Honestly, i never thought those particular girls would ever betray me the way that they did last week. It's not that big of a deal -- the issue i guess-- but the result in them opening their mouths was bad enough. When Cash heard all this shit and called me out on it, he unknowingly made me feel like the most horrible thing that has ever walked. I can't explain why it hurt so bad but i know that anyone who was my TRUE friend wouldn't have taken part in it. Lindsy and Ali are a lil different story, they wouldnt have really said nething had they not been questioned by Cash, whose questions, might i add, were provoked by Sara and Bria. So when it all boils down to it, it was them. That sucks........
So neways a friend of mine told me today that she has an eating disorder. And that i'm one of three people that knows about it even though it's been going on for a while. I feel horrible, but in the back of my mind, i suspected it. I wish i could say just one thing to make her realize that it will be okay, but then i realized that i dont even know if it will EVER be okay. I feel so lost, so unprepared for Cancun, and just all together unhappy. Last time Christa was home she talked about going back to one of my Dr.'s w/me. IDK if she even still remembers, but if we were to go this week i think my Dr. would say i was out of my mind.
Winter Break 05' is over-- i worked hard, i played hard----now it's time to return to normal.........