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tonight was purple pastel pretty.
i went to the coffee shop. i place myself in the far corner so i can watch the whole shop. i'm reading a book that is so over my head and yet is in jesse bridge's kindergarden reading level. scanning the room from right to left: a high school couple studies trig together. over one table: a grandmother, daughter, and granddaughter drink black coffee, mocha, and pop respectively. they color togehter and laugh. 3 generations represented. over one table: a woman in her late twenties is having a Bible study with 3 high school girls. they laugh and talk of craving chocolate. i want to be her someday soon. over two tables: 2 elderly women and 3 elderly men play cards. they begin by talking of pains and death but progress into laughter. they make me smile. i wonder what pains and hurts they've experienced. life wears you down, but they still are laughing. laughing and playing cards at 9pm on a school night. while frou frou plays above them. past the pop cooler to the counter: a girl in a hat continuously cleans. while tim sits on the counter reading his book outloud. he recently got a hair cut. scanning the room, i hold the warm mug in my hands and in this moment, i smile.
fast forward 30 minutes
party with Jesus alone. after many hugs, I take my place again in the back row. no one around me. Just me and you. and for this I worship. i sing and i pray and i clap and i shuffle my feet. a night alone. and i loved it.
exhale.
i went to the coffee shop. i place myself in the far corner so i can watch the whole shop. i'm reading a book that is so over my head and yet is in jesse bridge's kindergarden reading level. scanning the room from right to left: a high school couple studies trig together. over one table: a grandmother, daughter, and granddaughter drink black coffee, mocha, and pop respectively. they color togehter and laugh. 3 generations represented. over one table: a woman in her late twenties is having a Bible study with 3 high school girls. they laugh and talk of craving chocolate. i want to be her someday soon. over two tables: 2 elderly women and 3 elderly men play cards. they begin by talking of pains and death but progress into laughter. they make me smile. i wonder what pains and hurts they've experienced. life wears you down, but they still are laughing. laughing and playing cards at 9pm on a school night. while frou frou plays above them. past the pop cooler to the counter: a girl in a hat continuously cleans. while tim sits on the counter reading his book outloud. he recently got a hair cut. scanning the room, i hold the warm mug in my hands and in this moment, i smile.
fast forward 30 minutes
party with Jesus alone. after many hugs, I take my place again in the back row. no one around me. Just me and you. and for this I worship. i sing and i pray and i clap and i shuffle my feet. a night alone. and i loved it.
exhale.