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i
need
to
be
loved
again.
this is pathetic.
i don't want a relationship. i've come to see that relationships are just another institution for me to dislike and chirp about. i abhor the idea of relationships. i've found nothing distinctive or lovely about them.
i just want to be chased.
the thrill of knowing you're wanted.
but i'm not. i'm just an egotistical bitch.
life is glamourless.
it's so unfair.
in other business:
at the end of the summer i plan on cutting my hair so that i resemble this...
i don't care if it will look good or not.
i will inevitably look like a boy. which means i will not be attracting boys any more easily than i am now...
and i also hope to have either a tragus or anti-tragus piercing since i've been wanting to get one done since i was 14. maybe i'll get both, on different ears of course.
and i want my fucking tattoo. although i'm still even a bit shaky on that. i learned to appreciate the plainness of my skin and almost love it.
bonnaroo is coming up quickly. which is why i'm putting off getting my ear piercing. with my shit luck it would get infected and die on the spot. which is also why i'm getting the contacts you can wear day and night so that i don't have to touch my eyes and get fucking conjunctivitis.
i'm really excited though.
and i really am excited for prom. i'm going to sam kane's afterwards for a party which will be bitchin'. yeahyeah.
that's it.