i h a v e N E V E R f e l t S O a l o n e
okay well yesterdayyy after school i went over ewas. and then i called brandon and he came over and we all decided that we wanted to go to northampton. so we did and we just walked around and went to stores. then we went to an icecream place and brandon was nice enough to buy me icecream. i didnt no how much of a sweety he was =P .lady with the beard ;] actually. ew. around 8 he drove us all back to ewas and we watched tv till he had to leave, and then i did a little after. todayyy - was a weird day. had mcas all 4 periods, well for me cuz i took a break after like every story, too fuckin boring! got back for half of my last class [art] and talked to my favorite people there [sue, cris]which was good cuz they always make things better =] .. then i took a long walk/jog a little after i got home and im waisting the day away thinking about things.
okay theres gonna be a LOT of complaining. so if you dont wanna read it, just hit the little red [x]
well things havent been the greatest. im loseing a lot of friends lately, but i dont really care anymore. im so sick of trying to constantly please people that arent even worth it. im done with having friends that are 2 faced. im sick of "friends" who are just assholes to me. i just dont get why there isnt like almost anyone out there that actually can try not to be fucked up. okay. well, i do care, but i mean theres nothing i can do, why should i be a good friend to people who just talk shit and cause drama? if that means having only one or two close friends, then i guess thats how its gonna be. but thanx to megan and andrew for helping me with shit, love you guyss. anyway, the thing that really disapoints me, is when ur not even doing anything wrong =/ there goes my main summer plans.. i just give up.
im also kinda annoyed about something that happened the other night, and truthfully i still dont get it. i didnt even do anything and its just kinda stupid that the person couldnt even say why they were mad. no matter how nice i try to be it never works. i love how poeple pull this shit and blame anyone but themselves. oh well im not trying anymore, its their decision not mine.
yeah.. and my families trying to put guilt on me for something i didnt even have anything to do with, and nothing i can do about. its really bothering me .. maybe im supposed to be worried about this 24/7 like i basicly keep being told. but if something happens im never gonna be able to live it down... and maybe.. it is my fault =/ Oh. yeah i know this is gonna sound selfish, but everytime i think im gonna get my car, it gets pushed back a day further and its not that i cant wait but thats the only thing that i have to look foward to, the only positive thing i have in my life right now. why is it the only way i can be "happy" is when i fake it.
sorry.. i know this is really long, but i really had to get some things out
i miss the way things were
okay theres gonna be a LOT of complaining. so if you dont wanna read it, just hit the little red [x]
well things havent been the greatest. im loseing a lot of friends lately, but i dont really care anymore. im so sick of trying to constantly please people that arent even worth it. im done with having friends that are 2 faced. im sick of "friends" who are just assholes to me. i just dont get why there isnt like almost anyone out there that actually can try not to be fucked up. okay. well, i do care, but i mean theres nothing i can do, why should i be a good friend to people who just talk shit and cause drama? if that means having only one or two close friends, then i guess thats how its gonna be. but thanx to megan and andrew for helping me with shit, love you guyss. anyway, the thing that really disapoints me, is when ur not even doing anything wrong =/ there goes my main summer plans.. i just give up.
im also kinda annoyed about something that happened the other night, and truthfully i still dont get it. i didnt even do anything and its just kinda stupid that the person couldnt even say why they were mad. no matter how nice i try to be it never works. i love how poeple pull this shit and blame anyone but themselves. oh well im not trying anymore, its their decision not mine.
yeah.. and my families trying to put guilt on me for something i didnt even have anything to do with, and nothing i can do about. its really bothering me .. maybe im supposed to be worried about this 24/7 like i basicly keep being told. but if something happens im never gonna be able to live it down... and maybe.. it is my fault =/ Oh. yeah i know this is gonna sound selfish, but everytime i think im gonna get my car, it gets pushed back a day further and its not that i cant wait but thats the only thing that i have to look foward to, the only positive thing i have in my life right now. why is it the only way i can be "happy" is when i fake it.
sorry.. i know this is really long, but i really had to get some things out
i miss the way things were