do you.. feel it too ?
random. but. i always think about this and it makes me mad so im just gonna write about it. how am i not suposed to be so causious with my feelings?? everyone says "you gotta let go and just go for what u want. but its not that easy... everytime i wanna let go and actually try to go for a guy i like, sumthing always happens that lets me no its not okay, and that i should not tell him how i feel. and that all they want is just, u no; wut guys want. nobody even wants a "real" relationship these days and its liek "oh if she likes me then ill pretend i liek her and just fuck her" and thats how it is. yeah thats good either way, but unlike some people i actaully WANT a realationship. a real one. and then you get lied to, so then you dont even no WHAT or WHO to believe anymore, or if they *actually* want a relationship. wtf.. whether people agree or not but it happens EVERYTIME to me, and im sure soo many other people. maybe some of you are lucky ((REAL lucky...)) but im not, cuz its like deja vu and it all happens; the same thing, over and over again. its not fair. right when i think sumone is different sumthing happsn to prove me wrong. theyr all the same. no wonder why i havnt fallen in love..
as you get older everything gets harder. you become so much stronger and for the bad things, promises dont really mean to much since when ur mad they just vanish? and feelings get fucked up so much sumtimes u even question who you are.im not really sure about anything anymore...
how do we know. what we're ever r e a l l y after
sometimes its clear; when you are here
____nothing can shatter our world. i need
some faith now ((to trust you. somehow))
i wanna make you believe. but im afraid.
i wont let you hide away. maybe i. maybe im losing..
maybe i. maybe im okay. turn around. look around.
go around in circles. dont run away, drift away...
____dont hide A w A y