Here i Am. Once Again.im Torn Into Pieces

[xhiddensecr3tz]

i duhno whats wrong with me lately. and im so mad at myself. it seems like i can never stay likeing the same person for a long period of time. like ill like him and when i find out he likes me back i slowly stop liking him and i hate this, but as much as i try to ignore it, the feeling of liking this guy is gone. ill never be in love. never. because it happens every time. my one and only dream will never come true. blahhh... and im scared to even go out with a guy now, because the same shit is just going to happen again, me end up dumping him before a few months, and i feel aweful.
sumtimes i just wish i could close my eyes and dream forever. things at least go right in my dreams.
sometimes i wish i was inlove with sumone even if they didnt love me back. at least id know what it would feel like.
i wish i could feel normal. its hard to explain, and its hard to even describe. maybe im not meant to love or be loved by that person. who knows. just count yourselves lucky
i hope i change.. and fall in love. but we cant always get what we want. maybe one day....

sorry for the complaining.

anyways the point of this entry --->>





us girls.. and pat? lol



my ex [pat]



the birthday girl after the cake fight =D



ally and john



crystal ally and john =]



and me before the party

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cute pic of me and ewa haha yeh right =P

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