i just don't know
focus on the big picture and the little things will fall into place
....
i read that today. in a myspace bulletin of all places....
and idk it just made me think
it made me think of how i have forgotten my big picture
...i've fallen into a trap
lost in all the things i don't need
don't worry im not a druggy or alcoholic
i just go caught up
in a lot of bullshit these past 2 years
i write this so i remember exactly what i think of the things that have constantly been bringing me down
...it's all bullshit
fake
drama i set myself in to feel something
why do i think i need people in my life that constantly make me feel bad?
i know i don't need them
i know that tomorrow i'm not going to die because of this "emptiness"
this pain i let myself feel...
over what?...
people who honestly do not give a fuck
yeah
i'm a big push over
so thank you if you've ever taken advantage of that
i do have a heart...that tends to care about people too much...people who don't deserve it...people who don't want it...insignificant people
i lost sight of the most important things in my life...but i'm trying my hardest to get back to that...
it's ok to feel lonely
because deep down i know i'm not really alone.
i know.
sometimes i think too much
and sometimes not enough
i enjoy those moments when i have to time to think...
when im outside and able to breathe and think. and feel. by myself. which is what i need sometimes.
....
i read that today. in a myspace bulletin of all places....
and idk it just made me think
it made me think of how i have forgotten my big picture
...i've fallen into a trap
lost in all the things i don't need
don't worry im not a druggy or alcoholic
i just go caught up
in a lot of bullshit these past 2 years
i write this so i remember exactly what i think of the things that have constantly been bringing me down
...it's all bullshit
fake
drama i set myself in to feel something
why do i think i need people in my life that constantly make me feel bad?
i know i don't need them
i know that tomorrow i'm not going to die because of this "emptiness"
this pain i let myself feel...
over what?...
people who honestly do not give a fuck
yeah
i'm a big push over
so thank you if you've ever taken advantage of that
i do have a heart...that tends to care about people too much...people who don't deserve it...people who don't want it...insignificant people
i lost sight of the most important things in my life...but i'm trying my hardest to get back to that...
it's ok to feel lonely
because deep down i know i'm not really alone.
i know.
sometimes i think too much
and sometimes not enough
i enjoy those moments when i have to time to think...
when im outside and able to breathe and think. and feel. by myself. which is what i need sometimes.