stuck in reverse....
I drank way too much at work, it was my birthday though so it was kinda okay.
I have two guys in my life that I care alot for but can't make a total commitment to either.
I feel like I have grown up so much, and I am so satisfied with who I have become, but Im not ready to fully let a man into my life who doesn't adore everything I worked so hard for.
Im here, In California, doing what I want and Im happy but Im not ready to totally let anybody in particular into that. In weird way Im still holding standards up to a boy I was in love with when I was 19, and until I come in contact with somebody like that again, I won't ever let myself go. I cant say it isn't healthy, because it was, it taught me alot. Im a woman now, and I shouldn't ever settle for anybody who doesn't sweep me off my feet and make my heart dance a little, in the best giddy way.
LA has made me grow in so many ways, and for the most part in positive ways. If you come here expecting something too big, you are in for dissapoinment. You have to be smart to come here or it will snap at you like a rusty bear trap. It isn't about men right now, its about me. It's about being loved by people who appreciate you, and having a strong sense of self.
I do daydream though, and thats fine.
"But if you never try you'll never know, just what you're worth..."
I have two guys in my life that I care alot for but can't make a total commitment to either.
I feel like I have grown up so much, and I am so satisfied with who I have become, but Im not ready to fully let a man into my life who doesn't adore everything I worked so hard for.
Im here, In California, doing what I want and Im happy but Im not ready to totally let anybody in particular into that. In weird way Im still holding standards up to a boy I was in love with when I was 19, and until I come in contact with somebody like that again, I won't ever let myself go. I cant say it isn't healthy, because it was, it taught me alot. Im a woman now, and I shouldn't ever settle for anybody who doesn't sweep me off my feet and make my heart dance a little, in the best giddy way.
LA has made me grow in so many ways, and for the most part in positive ways. If you come here expecting something too big, you are in for dissapoinment. You have to be smart to come here or it will snap at you like a rusty bear trap. It isn't about men right now, its about me. It's about being loved by people who appreciate you, and having a strong sense of self.
I do daydream though, and thats fine.
"But if you never try you'll never know, just what you're worth..."