Feb 15, 2007 02:12
i haven't eaten or even had an apetite for the past 2 days. i tried picking at a couple green beans earlier but just looking at them made me feel shitty. my whole body hurts. my vision is blurry. i drift in and out of consciousness all day. flu? stress? heartbreak? plague? you decide.
i've been living on tea and flintstone vitamins.
at least now i'll lose enough weight to fit into my tonic suit before vegas next week.
on the other hand, i DID break a table in half with my diesel ass the other night, kung fu style.
i've reflected upon my relastionship for the past 6 months, how much nasty shit he's said and how many times he's dumped me and kicked me out for trivial shit. i've decided that it almost doesn't even hurt anymore. thanks for re-activating my shitty defense mechanisms. and thanks for reminding me of what it feels like to be hollow. i don't even cry about it anymore.
the "off" buttton was busted for a while, but now it's fully armed and operational. it may even be too late.