damn
so its been almost a month since i updated last and well its cause i didnt want to. i dunno, i lost all drive for doing anything lately. im still jobless, ive had a few interviews, but nothing has come from them except for interviewing experience. so i sit around all day sleeping and playing wow. yeah i know it sounds liek fun, but im fucking bored and i want a job already. this sucks balls.
ok away from that now....went up to pdam a few weeks ago for the career fair . otherwise it was awesome being up there again. i miss it. club 99 looks awesome! partying with everyone was great, and i even ventured into duffs again (do not insert smart ass remark, i had enough of them thanks). but it was some fun times, and it made me realize i miss college life, not the classes part, but the social time and having friends around all the time. all my friends here work awful hours or work at the damn park.
so jeff was in OH for 3 weeks and last week i REALLY wanted to go see him b4 he went back to CA but i couldnt. i coudlnt afford it and i ended up getting an interview. and the interview seemed to b a waste, so im really wishing i went to see him. i miss him alot. i know ppl are calling me stupid for still talking to him and wanting to hang out with him, but you know fuck you ppl. after everything thats happened we can still talk to each other and hang out and im happy about that. let me lead the life i want. i ahve a better chance of sleeping with him and hes 2800 mi away than i do with any guy thats within 6 hrs of here. the only guy who i get any action from at home...is a gay(bi when drunk) guy. and all i get is some hickies on my neck. so its not even like im getting any. yeah so what if that means i have no life here. its the truth. the guys i meet arent even worth a 1 nite stand with. so i dont even bother anymore trying to find anyone anymore. the bars have lost all excitment to go these days (1 no moeny, 2 the guys suck). so my solution? give up. why do i even want to bother with the stress anymore. i ahve enough here at home rite now. ok, done with rant #2 lol
speaking of boys....my dreams lately are really nice, but not realistic lol if they ever came true i would be so happy. hehe
so i was thinking since im not going to NY for thanksgiving this year, since meme still cant handle it, maybe id see if i coudl travel elsewhere for it. jsut an idea for rite now. it would need to be discussed. but rite now its an idea.
ok well off to study for the FE which is in 23 days....damnit. speaking of which, i need to find a floor in syracuse to crash on fri nite and maybe sat. sucks i ahve to b at work on sun....but yay the 29th is the last operating day of the season....thank god!!!!
later
ok away from that now....went up to pdam a few weeks ago for the career fair . otherwise it was awesome being up there again. i miss it. club 99 looks awesome! partying with everyone was great, and i even ventured into duffs again (do not insert smart ass remark, i had enough of them thanks). but it was some fun times, and it made me realize i miss college life, not the classes part, but the social time and having friends around all the time. all my friends here work awful hours or work at the damn park.
so jeff was in OH for 3 weeks and last week i REALLY wanted to go see him b4 he went back to CA but i couldnt. i coudlnt afford it and i ended up getting an interview. and the interview seemed to b a waste, so im really wishing i went to see him. i miss him alot. i know ppl are calling me stupid for still talking to him and wanting to hang out with him, but you know fuck you ppl. after everything thats happened we can still talk to each other and hang out and im happy about that. let me lead the life i want. i ahve a better chance of sleeping with him and hes 2800 mi away than i do with any guy thats within 6 hrs of here. the only guy who i get any action from at home...is a gay(bi when drunk) guy. and all i get is some hickies on my neck. so its not even like im getting any. yeah so what if that means i have no life here. its the truth. the guys i meet arent even worth a 1 nite stand with. so i dont even bother anymore trying to find anyone anymore. the bars have lost all excitment to go these days (1 no moeny, 2 the guys suck). so my solution? give up. why do i even want to bother with the stress anymore. i ahve enough here at home rite now. ok, done with rant #2 lol
speaking of boys....my dreams lately are really nice, but not realistic lol if they ever came true i would be so happy. hehe
so i was thinking since im not going to NY for thanksgiving this year, since meme still cant handle it, maybe id see if i coudl travel elsewhere for it. jsut an idea for rite now. it would need to be discussed. but rite now its an idea.
ok well off to study for the FE which is in 23 days....damnit. speaking of which, i need to find a floor in syracuse to crash on fri nite and maybe sat. sucks i ahve to b at work on sun....but yay the 29th is the last operating day of the season....thank god!!!!
later