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im pretty sure he has a girlfriend. It shouldnt change anything but it does.
I'm soooo mad our relationship made me so sad and destroyed me like that.
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Im gonna talk to my dad and try to fix things up. (or maybe not..)
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i went to the park all by myself this evening to read and sit in the sun. It felt sooo nice. I need more time being by myself. Hopefully i will start loving myself again soon. I want people to love me so bad that i just forget i should be loving myself first to feel better. it shouldnt be so hard. i guess...
p.s.: i love you all alot. at least i have that and definetely feel it!
I'm soooo mad our relationship made me so sad and destroyed me like that.
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Im gonna talk to my dad and try to fix things up. (or maybe not..)
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i went to the park all by myself this evening to read and sit in the sun. It felt sooo nice. I need more time being by myself. Hopefully i will start loving myself again soon. I want people to love me so bad that i just forget i should be loving myself first to feel better. it shouldnt be so hard. i guess...
p.s.: i love you all alot. at least i have that and definetely feel it!