hey
am i allowed to be angry, that time and time again i tell people how fuckin shitty i feel, and time and time again get it thrown right the fuck back in my face. i mean the only emotions i feel now are depressed and hatred, like this summer can fuckin go to hell, cuase it rele fuckin sucks for me, and i have absolutely nothing to god dam look forward to next year. o yea im going to some fuckin school in a hospital for the rest of my high school years, with a total of 32 kids in the entire school. i rele dont kno what the fuck to do anymore, people tell me this awesome shit about me, then fuckin ditch me, well thanks for making me fucking feel like im in middle school again. i tried so god dam hard to get past my elementary school years, withe everyone bullyin me cause i was tall and liked metallica, and past my middle school years when everyone jumped me, and beat me, and tortured me for threee years cause i was different and tall, then i get to high school, and everythings ok, then half way in, i start feeling shitty as usual, and i end up trying to kill myself, get sent to the hospital, and all these fucking programs, and back to school to realize nobody rele the fuck cared, or they did, but it was onyl cause i left for so long, which is worse. last summer kicked ass, i had good fuckin friends, a good job, good money too, and then i get switched to saunders, its pretty kick ass, then the same shit hapopens again, but much worse, and i try to kill myself 4 times, i end up being in and out of the hospital even into the summer, so all i have to fuckin say to this fuckin world is leave me the fuck alone, cause all u do is hurt me, year after year, and everything ive been through gives me the knowledge to finally say its all your fault, so fuck you.
if u actually read this, im prouf of you.
if u actually read this, im prouf of you.