I don't know what to do ...
Last night, sucked ... Psylem kicked ass, but that was all that was good that came out of it. I was all bummed out all day, because I wanted to be alone with Abra so bad but it's nearly impossible for that to happen when I can't even be at her house without her mom there. I knew something really bad was going to happen too, so I was just in an all around bad mood. than, right after psylem played, ... we broke up ... and I don't know what to do because she said she really likes me but she doesn't want to commit to anyone right now ... Imean, if she did, she'd go back out with me, and she said she would, but I'm afraod that I'll do what I've aways done before and I'll push her too far away for that to happen. I'm so afraid of waiting because I'm afraid that I will truelly lose her. She's freakin cool, we never even really fought, except for that thing back before we even started going out (the psylem/rottencore dilemma). Bye having that little thing though, we already knew eachother's reactions to things like that, it was actually (kindof) a good thing that we had that fight, cause we knew more about eachother from it. anyways, we we're great together, I have ZERO complaints about the time I spent with her. None at all. I just wish that I didn't have to wait and see what happens and I was just with her now. I miss her already ... I miss what we had. Imean, yeah, we'll make great friends cause we have literally everything in common, but, not being able to kiss her, or hold her close ... I'm really going to miss that. so yeah, SHITTY weekend. I'm gunna go hang out with Gabe now ... and then I'm gunna go get Abra and we're gunna watch some movies together over here. I hope someday she changes her mind, and I hope that I don't do anything stupid. we're still going to see eachother like every weekend, but it won't be to be together, it'll just to hang out ... I've made quite a few freinds down here, I love the area still, and as much as it hurts not to be with Abra, at least I'll still get to do stuff with her. She rocks. :p