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BLAH! today im feeling blah!!! i want to go shopping...here we go again compulsive spending leading to im upset about something subconsiously......lets see...
1.i start U of L next Mon.
2.Brittany left
3.Lauren leaves Thurs.
4.my boyfriend's job sucks
5.my job sucks \ i guess these
6.my boss is a dick / could count as one?
7.im broke
8.my next door neighbor is a stalker
9.my mom and dad are trying to kick me out
10.UPS wont hire me yet
1. i start all by myself! that scary i know no one. im going to look like a big dumb loser and i have absolutley no idea where i am going. personally i think college is waste of time right now because i have no idea what i want to be in life so im taking a bunch of usless classes that will count for nothing towards my major..or atleast anything im intersted in gettin into....history 101--boring! would have much rather of had 102 but did fit in with my math....eng 101 which i think is going to be hard....i was looking at my books today...the orientaion class...math 65! stupid people math because im an idiot! which fucks up everything because there is one one certain time for that a day...and the enjoyment of theatre...which i like theatre but lets face it the only people who ever take theatre are wierdos! ill admit i did it..an look who i met! hahaha so im scared to death of that class....
2.brittny left and shes not that far away but shes still gone..
3. lauren leaves thursday and that upset me because i wanted to hangout before she left and she doesnt seem like she wants to :( that hurts my feelings....last night when i called her she didnt listen to a word i was saying i was kind of like hmmm....does she still want to be my friend...i kind of get the impression she doesn't
4.mikes job sucks! im happy for him im just upset because the time we spend is more limited and cut short..it feels planned...i love him so much....he means everything to me and i just want to make him happy...i planned a funn weekend for us this weekend...im excited....
5.i hate my job they cut my hours and my fucking pay and now im stuck where i cant quit....until after christmas so they can find someone and theyll hate me forever for doin it and ill never be able to go back to tae kwon do there ever again...it sucks but i cant pay my bills and i cant study and work liek this...its to hard for em to do...
6.my boss sticks me to do everything he doesnt want to do..im basically his bitch...which would be fine if i had just started working there but i have put in my time! 4 fucking years! come on....you dont call me on my off day at 6 am and tell me i need you to be there at 7 am i cant make it... i know your having problems right now and im sorry i really am but the shit needs to stop...
7.so because they cut my hours nd my pay i no longer am able to quit or pay my bills....this sucks im broke and have to keep bumming from the grandparents and parents...its sucks i hate this...ive never had to do this...
8.aaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!my next door neighboor is a freakin stalker....he lied about being in the army and being im iraq..bad enough...but the hottone that moved in with him is trying to hook up with me and i keep trying to avoid them and hurry up and get in my house when i come home and shit but the talk to my family and yesterday trea drove by my work thinnking i wouldnt see him....are you serious? your cars hideous ho am i not supposed to see it?aaah there i home now i heard there car...uuuummmmmmm:( im scared...stalkers!
9.my mom and dad are pushing UPS again they kee telling me i need to quit tae kwon do and get a job there but its not that easy yesterday they told me to get a realy job and move out....ouch....this sucks...im puching towards UPS
10.since i went for the interview in April, you cant reapply for another position for 6 months...i didnt type fast enough...and damn i type pretty dagon fast...so i dont know what im going to do! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!THE STALKERS ARE CUTTING MY GRASS WHAT THE HELL!!!!!