we are done here!!
i don't think i'll ever drink at a party ever again, especially after last nights party. i partied with jose, malibu, adios, & cosmo. it was fun taking a shot with emad, sone & my brother. yet i'm still a light weight, so my very frist shot of tequila really, really messed me up. that's how weak i am! everyone was calling me by my new nick name...Ilene! cause i'm a drunken mexican that leans, emad would try to get me to walk around the place & when i did he'd come up to me & start poking at me to see if i could fall. ya, that's friendship. sad. it was only 9:30ish when i was gone, then john came by & mixed some drinks. some negative & positive points of the night.
minus: john dancing with the dog
minus: stupid girls that left the front door open
minus: dog runs out of the house
minus: drunken me chasing after the dog (i maybe drunk, but i do know what's going on)
plus: drinking with sone
plus: sone stayed the whole night
plus: seeing people that i miss
plus: people singing "come on Ilene"
plus: after party talk on the curb with sone
minus: just because i'm drunk doesn't mean i dont know what being said
minus: have some consideration for others feelings!
plus: meeting new people
plus: white guys can't dance (the way these guys were dacning made it funny so it's a )
minus: don't talk about me & my feelings like they don't exist (again just because i'm drunk it doesn't mean i dont know what going on)
minus: cigars are just sick!
plus: having a shot with sone
plus: cosmos
plus: adios
minus/plus: making him feel like an ass (hopefully he got that hint when i didn't say bye to him, but only to his friends)
plus: call me art, Ilene or just leen whatever i'll answer
plus: sleeping on emad's water bed
minus: sone & emad fighting on the water bed while i was sleeping (i get sea sick, enough said! no i didn't throw up)
plus: not throwing up unlike some people at the party (wussies, don't drink if you can't hang!)
plus: people not beleiving that i'm 21
i know there's more, but i just can't remember them right now. last night felt like the halloween party, minus the fairy wing, punk rock skirt, & sone trying to fly all you have to do is add a crowd to witness my failure & to make jokes about. i don't think i ever felt like a huge moron, like i did that night. i admit it's going to be a year since that night, but you know it still hurts, & to have people around to hear it just hurts more. i never let it bug me that much, of course i did cry that night. in that moment all these old feelings just resurfaced again. then again i was in the middle of my sobering up point of the night. of course during the after talk on the curb with sone i told her what happened & i ended up crying. crying after drinking soo much is bad! i had such a huge headache & i felt like crap. i'm thankful that sone stayed the whole night, sone is the greatest person ever! so i've to this conclution & i know that i've said this soo many times, but i just have to say it again, guys are stupid! i'm not a complicated person to figure out, really i'm not. they make things complicated & confusing.
i'm done! drinking is bad!
minus: john dancing with the dog
minus: stupid girls that left the front door open
minus: dog runs out of the house
minus: drunken me chasing after the dog (i maybe drunk, but i do know what's going on)
plus: drinking with sone
plus: sone stayed the whole night
plus: seeing people that i miss
plus: people singing "come on Ilene"
plus: after party talk on the curb with sone
minus: just because i'm drunk doesn't mean i dont know what being said
minus: have some consideration for others feelings!
plus: meeting new people
plus: white guys can't dance (the way these guys were dacning made it funny so it's a )
minus: don't talk about me & my feelings like they don't exist (again just because i'm drunk it doesn't mean i dont know what going on)
minus: cigars are just sick!
plus: having a shot with sone
plus: cosmos
plus: adios
minus/plus: making him feel like an ass (hopefully he got that hint when i didn't say bye to him, but only to his friends)
plus: call me art, Ilene or just leen whatever i'll answer
plus: sleeping on emad's water bed
minus: sone & emad fighting on the water bed while i was sleeping (i get sea sick, enough said! no i didn't throw up)
plus: not throwing up unlike some people at the party (wussies, don't drink if you can't hang!)
plus: people not beleiving that i'm 21
i know there's more, but i just can't remember them right now. last night felt like the halloween party, minus the fairy wing, punk rock skirt, & sone trying to fly all you have to do is add a crowd to witness my failure & to make jokes about. i don't think i ever felt like a huge moron, like i did that night. i admit it's going to be a year since that night, but you know it still hurts, & to have people around to hear it just hurts more. i never let it bug me that much, of course i did cry that night. in that moment all these old feelings just resurfaced again. then again i was in the middle of my sobering up point of the night. of course during the after talk on the curb with sone i told her what happened & i ended up crying. crying after drinking soo much is bad! i had such a huge headache & i felt like crap. i'm thankful that sone stayed the whole night, sone is the greatest person ever! so i've to this conclution & i know that i've said this soo many times, but i just have to say it again, guys are stupid! i'm not a complicated person to figure out, really i'm not. they make things complicated & confusing.
i'm done! drinking is bad!