what could be worse...
than an on-again, off-again, (more off than on) long-distance relationship with someone you can't get over no matter how hard you try?
i think i may have found it! in fact, i think i may have chosen it all by myself. i am such a winner.
to be honest, it only sort of sucks. the rest of the time i'm beaming! so maybe it'll be worth it. and maybe, it will be enough of a distraction that i might eventually, someday, finally, please God, move on.
yes i know, i'm saying a lot of words without actually saying anything. but i feel like it right now.
i'm going to give some thanks to my friends who still post on here regularly enough to make it worth reading. josh... thank you for not completely cutting me out of your life for being such a huge douche to you. i like seeing you happy. well...reading about you being happy. i am so glad you have someone who deserves you! annie... thank you for being so open and honest and unashamed of everything you think and feel. reading your posts is like reading a really good book, i'm always looking forward to what is coming next. and you make me feel like i have a little bit of home in my daily life. it's refreshing. dailyn... i never ever see you. but you rock my socks. and you make me feel like i'm still in on things! thanks kids.
i think maybe i stopped posting because nothing seemed to be changing in my life anymore. i still have the same job. i'm still not going to school and frustrated about it. i'm still best friends with the same people. and raise your hands if you were not sick of the on/off/happy/sad/love/fight drama, cause i sure as hell was. i just can't believe that you should have to work that hard all the time to be happy.
what is new? i've been living with courtney for a couple of months now. i love her muchly. it's great to go home to someone i love so much who loves me. it's not quite enough for the rest of my life, but it sure as hell beats living alone. having a best friend for a roommate is like getting to pick your family. she doesn't do the dishes as often as i would like, she never turns out the lights when she goes to bed, i've had to get after her for making me late on many occassions. but at the end of the day, i'm so happy to have her there that none of that really matters.
i think i may have found it! in fact, i think i may have chosen it all by myself. i am such a winner.
to be honest, it only sort of sucks. the rest of the time i'm beaming! so maybe it'll be worth it. and maybe, it will be enough of a distraction that i might eventually, someday, finally, please God, move on.
yes i know, i'm saying a lot of words without actually saying anything. but i feel like it right now.
i'm going to give some thanks to my friends who still post on here regularly enough to make it worth reading. josh... thank you for not completely cutting me out of your life for being such a huge douche to you. i like seeing you happy. well...reading about you being happy. i am so glad you have someone who deserves you! annie... thank you for being so open and honest and unashamed of everything you think and feel. reading your posts is like reading a really good book, i'm always looking forward to what is coming next. and you make me feel like i have a little bit of home in my daily life. it's refreshing. dailyn... i never ever see you. but you rock my socks. and you make me feel like i'm still in on things! thanks kids.
i think maybe i stopped posting because nothing seemed to be changing in my life anymore. i still have the same job. i'm still not going to school and frustrated about it. i'm still best friends with the same people. and raise your hands if you were not sick of the on/off/happy/sad/love/fight drama, cause i sure as hell was. i just can't believe that you should have to work that hard all the time to be happy.
what is new? i've been living with courtney for a couple of months now. i love her muchly. it's great to go home to someone i love so much who loves me. it's not quite enough for the rest of my life, but it sure as hell beats living alone. having a best friend for a roommate is like getting to pick your family. she doesn't do the dishes as often as i would like, she never turns out the lights when she goes to bed, i've had to get after her for making me late on many occassions. but at the end of the day, i'm so happy to have her there that none of that really matters.