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went to the portugese fest again..not drunk or anything..been pretty sad all dayfor the most part.im here at home now where imnot suposed to be and cocco is here..he kinda got kiked out of his house so yea..me and cocco think that life really sucks and isnt gonna get better..i really hope it does but i dunno.yea i found out that chantel is goin around telling some oen or soem thign that i cheated on laine with her..it is so much bull shit..that kinda made the toping of my past day or so.im not really happy..last night i shouldnt have goen there liek that..cocco even told emthat laine didnt even want to see me...he told me today..he said she seemed kinda happy tho after when i was better...i guess im kinda beating myself up about the other nite but i dunno.thats just something i really didnt want people that i cared about and respcted anfd stuff see me like that..i didnt want anyone to lose respect or be dissapointed or mad or anything..laine..if you do read this anytime soon i hope your having fun with bex and stuff..i am still gonna be sorry about being drunk..youll never see me liek that again..i wanna talk to you againa nd soon and stuff...i miss you alot already and i guess it kinda sux that the lasttime you saw me was when i was being stupid...if you get home soon or anything call me..tell bestfreind and bex i said hi and happy birthday...have fun and i hope i get to see you soon or something..chantel is a liar and im kinda pissed about that...i miss you ..i love you..yea you already know and prolly dont even want to hear it anymore(maybe getting annoying?)but i love you more then anything..ever...the only time im truly happy is when im with you..(im not stalker or obbsessed lol)..i dunno... i just love you more then i could explain and umm yea i dunno..im tired so im gonna go to sleep