Do you regret what you said? We've got a lot to talk about.

[xhatetofeelx]

I have no idea what to think of anything anymore.

Steve has been texting me non stop, when I left last night.
& today. And now he wants to hang out, tomorrow. and more often.
I don't get it. He never wanted anything to do with me, and now this.
I don't want to get involved in all that again. It hurt way too much.
He confuses the hell out of me. He wants to be good friends. But that doesn't work with him.
I know him. You can't be just friends. It's one end of the spectrum or the other.

sigh.

& then. Andrew and I had the longest talk in who knows how long.
He's back home, and he and jamie are completely done.
He wants another chance. He wants to 'pick up where we left off.'
I don't even know what to think of all that.
it's hard. i mean, he's the last person who ever cared that much about me.
and, i don't think i'll ever meet another person who I click so well with, and who still cares and loves me down to each and every one of my imperfections.

I was doing so well.
I'd moved on, I'd gotten over nearly everything.
I was pretty content with how things were going, happy.

and now this.

i think i may have to put those new shot glasses i got as an early present to use.