Remember 12/25/06
this entry is a memo to myself. because even though i sometimes think what happened is my fault and even when others think it was my fault i know it wasnt my fault.shit happens
sometimes things happen. you dont see them coming at all. you dont see the potential for something that bad to happen. especially if its christmas and all you want to do is get drunk, have fun and hang out. shit will still happen. it could of been prevented, who really knows. but its not your fault that it happened, some people are just pieces of shit.scumbags.and probably the next time you see them you'll kick them 16 times in the balls for what they did, and the good thing is they cant call the cops. but maybe you wont do that, and the next time you see them. you'll avoid them and leave the bar and pretend that what happened didnt happen. or maybe you'll finally get the guts to call a hotline, or the cops for that matter. or maybe you'll do nothing about it and never see the assholes again. but hopefully you dont forget it and you dont dwell on it. no mater how much you want to do either of those things. maybe you can learn from it. and maybe and hopefully you dont become paranoid of overdrinking and meeting people you dont know too well. what can you say, it can happen, it might happen, it did happen. the thing now is what are you going to do about it? how are you going to cope with it? and dont let them or yourself think its your fault.
it is not my fault.and i wish i could do anything to go back to prevent it, and just kick them both in the nuts.
sometimes things happen. you dont see them coming at all. you dont see the potential for something that bad to happen. especially if its christmas and all you want to do is get drunk, have fun and hang out. shit will still happen. it could of been prevented, who really knows. but its not your fault that it happened, some people are just pieces of shit.scumbags.and probably the next time you see them you'll kick them 16 times in the balls for what they did, and the good thing is they cant call the cops. but maybe you wont do that, and the next time you see them. you'll avoid them and leave the bar and pretend that what happened didnt happen. or maybe you'll finally get the guts to call a hotline, or the cops for that matter. or maybe you'll do nothing about it and never see the assholes again. but hopefully you dont forget it and you dont dwell on it. no mater how much you want to do either of those things. maybe you can learn from it. and maybe and hopefully you dont become paranoid of overdrinking and meeting people you dont know too well. what can you say, it can happen, it might happen, it did happen. the thing now is what are you going to do about it? how are you going to cope with it? and dont let them or yourself think its your fault.
it is not my fault.and i wish i could do anything to go back to prevent it, and just kick them both in the nuts.