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Sheffield was fun. Involved lots of laughing, far too much drinking and silly drunken antics.
Got to see indie boy james. he asked me why we called him 'indie boy james' and 'was he really that obvioulsy indie' haha. i love him in a non proper love way if that makes sense. he makes me mad because i know i could fall for him and i'd get hurt. Rosy and Lyz once again i had the best time with you guys.
Thursday i went out with a guy called dean, we walked around town and went to the movies. When we wer walking by the river he held my hand. and kinda talked as if we are going to be an item. and told me how he likes me etc... This made me come to realise i dont want any of it, at all... for a while. I like being single and the idea of having someone again scares the shit out of me and makes me so mad its unbelievable.
Tonight i watched some shitty movie called chasing liberty.. it was shit. about love and all this cheesy stuff.movies make things look so easy when they really aren't and makes me so mad. seriously ive turned into a really bitter person since the whole shaun thing. Deans telling me how hes told his mum about me and he was like "tell me if im smuthering you"... i started crying. what the fuck is wrong with me?. i dont even know why im ranting on here.... BUT ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH I NEEED SPACE. i need to get away. serious im going to work at tescos for a month earn some extra money and get the fuck out ON MY OWN. ok rant over. you can all shoot me now.
love ♥
Got to see indie boy james. he asked me why we called him 'indie boy james' and 'was he really that obvioulsy indie' haha. i love him in a non proper love way if that makes sense. he makes me mad because i know i could fall for him and i'd get hurt. Rosy and Lyz once again i had the best time with you guys.
Thursday i went out with a guy called dean, we walked around town and went to the movies. When we wer walking by the river he held my hand. and kinda talked as if we are going to be an item. and told me how he likes me etc... This made me come to realise i dont want any of it, at all... for a while. I like being single and the idea of having someone again scares the shit out of me and makes me so mad its unbelievable.
Tonight i watched some shitty movie called chasing liberty.. it was shit. about love and all this cheesy stuff.movies make things look so easy when they really aren't and makes me so mad. seriously ive turned into a really bitter person since the whole shaun thing. Deans telling me how hes told his mum about me and he was like "tell me if im smuthering you"... i started crying. what the fuck is wrong with me?. i dont even know why im ranting on here.... BUT ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH I NEEED SPACE. i need to get away. serious im going to work at tescos for a month earn some extra money and get the fuck out ON MY OWN. ok rant over. you can all shoot me now.
love ♥