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Jason wants a SERIOUS relationship. He's in it for the long run. It kinda scares me though. I've been telling myself..and other people (lol) that I want a SERIOUS boyfriend..to really 'settle down' with someone. And, by that, I DONT mean marrying them! He's a complete gentlemen..but, aren't they all AT FIRST? yeh, I thought Paul was a gentlemen too. Garrick was right, I do believe, that I didnt LOVE him..I was infatuated with him. Jason is younger..17...but, he's nice..to me ne wayz...and, he has a sense of humor..which is so rare nowadayz. Amanda and I are supposed to hang out with him and Will Wednsday..hope we do something fun. Will stoped at the grocery store..just to buy amanda Cheese cracers. Ya know, the kind you dip the cheese out with the lil red stick? haha...CHEESE WHORE! (inside joke..very gay) I hope me and Jason can go off by ourselves for a little bit. We probably are. I actually let him kiss me. This is HUGE..for whoever doesnt know. Well, last night..I thought he wasnt going to call. And, sure enough, he suprises me with a phone call. Isnt he special? ne wayz... I would like to be in a serious relationship too..but, I'm afraid. What if we're really close..and I really love him...and, something happens? Most likely it will. Im trying to look at it as if the glass is half full..NOT half empty..but, It's so damn hard..with the millions of assholes out there. The girls no exactly what Im talking about. I would like (for my bday) to rent a room somewhere..and drink all night! And, will could come..Jason could come..sara..etc...people who ALL get along..I would like for my friends to come..get to me about this..my bday is JANUARY 27th. Well, peace for now...