is there any reason for it all?
If you're reading this...and are thinking of some bullshit comment to leave...think again..and go ahead and click out of this journal. I love to hear peoples opinion..good or bad...but, i will not read some bullshit with no brains behind it. just shut the fuck up...grow up...and look into some sort of HOBBY.
back to me..Michael..i think i may call your work tonight. even though i feel incredibly stupid doing so. you're worth it. i've realized that maybe i wasnt really being myself around my new friends..and maybe i showed them parts of me..they're not ready for. im a little ahead of myself.
my mom came in here..and asked what was wrong with me...i didnt want to tell her..because im not like that. i pretty much..trust...NO ONE. It's not neccessarily them...it's me. i dont express my feelings so well...especially to someone's face..i cant do that. i wanted to tell her..but i just cant. but, its not her. she wants me to go to south carolina with her this weekend..so just doesnt have to go alone with my dad. i defenitely dont blame her. but, what she doesnt understand..is that i ant go see a bunch of family..not able to escape..ill be trapped. they're all going to be drinking..VODKA (my absolute favorite)... right in front of me..and, im just supposed to sit and watch everyone get drunk off their ass..without me. they dont know i drink all that much...especially vodka. i dont see why they try to pretend that i dont..when they know i do. ne wayz.. i guess im staying here this weekend..and..i dont know if ill chill with ne body r not... i just dont want to do anything big. ill probably watch movies and pigout. sounds like fun.. i know. craig is such an asshole...i told him that i called him...because i really needed to talk to him..and he was like.."okay" what the fuck ever craig! you were my best friend..i was your best friend..i was there for you through it all..our whole lives..and you USED to be there for me. but, i guess you're too 'high and mighty' now to even care. whatever. fuck you too..just like everyone else. it's okay though..if that's how you want it. you're not the only one who lost momaw..you're not the only one with pressure...you're not the only one with relationship problems..you're not the only one that lives and breathes. i love you..but, i cant stand you either.
back to me..Michael..i think i may call your work tonight. even though i feel incredibly stupid doing so. you're worth it. i've realized that maybe i wasnt really being myself around my new friends..and maybe i showed them parts of me..they're not ready for. im a little ahead of myself.
my mom came in here..and asked what was wrong with me...i didnt want to tell her..because im not like that. i pretty much..trust...NO ONE. It's not neccessarily them...it's me. i dont express my feelings so well...especially to someone's face..i cant do that. i wanted to tell her..but i just cant. but, its not her. she wants me to go to south carolina with her this weekend..so just doesnt have to go alone with my dad. i defenitely dont blame her. but, what she doesnt understand..is that i ant go see a bunch of family..not able to escape..ill be trapped. they're all going to be drinking..VODKA (my absolute favorite)... right in front of me..and, im just supposed to sit and watch everyone get drunk off their ass..without me. they dont know i drink all that much...especially vodka. i dont see why they try to pretend that i dont..when they know i do. ne wayz.. i guess im staying here this weekend..and..i dont know if ill chill with ne body r not... i just dont want to do anything big. ill probably watch movies and pigout. sounds like fun.. i know. craig is such an asshole...i told him that i called him...because i really needed to talk to him..and he was like.."okay" what the fuck ever craig! you were my best friend..i was your best friend..i was there for you through it all..our whole lives..and you USED to be there for me. but, i guess you're too 'high and mighty' now to even care. whatever. fuck you too..just like everyone else. it's okay though..if that's how you want it. you're not the only one who lost momaw..you're not the only one with pressure...you're not the only one with relationship problems..you're not the only one that lives and breathes. i love you..but, i cant stand you either.