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I'm a big big flirt.
I'm not ashamed of it, but I'm also not entirely proud here. Sometimes I think my mouth has a mind of it's own. Plus, since little I've been very loving. I mean i grew up in a society where a kiss on the cheek meant hi! not hey baby! Not that this should excuse my behavior at times in any way. I'm a firm believer that some things happen to you cause you bring 'em upon yourself. You get your heart broken? well maybe you should've protected it better and not be so open so quickly. I make mistakes, I admit them and I learn....at times that is. What surprises me more is the things that come out of my mouth. No sex freak type of things, no. But flirting without a doubt seems to come very easily.
I'm very positive on other people's life.
When my friends or family have problems i always believe that the best will happen to them. That they will go on and it will all be ok. But, for some reason i dont seem to believe that about myself. Whenever someting bad happens, I really dont seem to think it will change for me. It's a very bad habit, and i want to change it. Mainly because that is a big problem with my mom right now. Since her divorce 14 years ago she's not the same happy person she use to be. But now that she's over here and with mainly no friends at all, her view on life is completely negative. She believes she only as us, so watching us grow and separate from her becomes more difficult and a big reason of fights and arguments. I mean she's my mom and no matter what I love her, but at time she doesn't let me grow just to keep me around. Making decisions in my life has become scary because i dont feel like letting her down anymore.
I'm way more sentimental than i use to be.
I don't know If im going crazy or hormonal or what but now i find myself tearing up and feeling emotional over the silliest things. You know that movie Blue Crush, well when she actually makes the last surf and she is all happy and shit, my eyes teared up. WHAT THE FUCK? I mean honestly what the hell?? It's not something you cry about or tear up about, but there i was with watery eyes. I mean i was not crying a river or anything like that...but seriously. Saying bye to my dad has become such an emotional thing that i can't speak on the phone for a week after i've left him or i start balling like a baby.
This post was random, but i dont care.