You're allowed to stay for a while.
i have not updated my livejournal since april, hah.
man, i actually forgot about this thing for awhile.
its almost thanksgiving and i'm really looking forward to the break, seeing all my friends and family, the amazing food and the awesome good times/shows.
everyone is going to be in, so it will be kinda hectic making sure i see everyone, but it will be totally worth it.
i realized that this summer was probably the best time of my life. it had its downs, but overall, it was absolutely amazing. i spent every waking moment with my best friend and made some new best friends in the process.
i'm feeling really emo right now, i feel like i've been a really bad person to the people who mean more to me in my life than anyone. what the fuck is wrong with me?
how can i be honest with other people, when i can't be fucking honest with myself?
i miss kear soo much right now. she is the most intelligent, beautiful, smart and funny person in the world, she is soo important to me, and yet it seems like i treat her like shit all the time. i'm soo tired of fucking our relationship up, because if i lose her, i lose everything.
i remember back when we first started hanging out, and how amazing that was, and all the new feelings i had never felt before. its soo weird. weird to see how we changed. changed in soo many different ways. i never thought she would be as open with me as she is. i take that for granted for sure.
"I guess this is what it's like to be really down
And holding out for something
Remembering the warm nights"
that song was on and they felt fitting.
i miss seton catholic high school. i had the best four years of my life at that school. i made amazing friends. i met a beautiful girl. i learned more than i ever thought i could. i had soo many good times. i miss that place.
college wears on me sometimes, but i know if i wasnt in college, i would be a seriously unhappy person.
i need to stop slacking off and being lazy. its not helping me in the least. there is no reason i shouldnt be at work every day, making money for the stuff i want to do with kear. i'm sick of relying on everyone else. i'm 20 years old and i need to start acting like it.
i really hope and pray i get into temple university.
blah.
man, i actually forgot about this thing for awhile.
its almost thanksgiving and i'm really looking forward to the break, seeing all my friends and family, the amazing food and the awesome good times/shows.
everyone is going to be in, so it will be kinda hectic making sure i see everyone, but it will be totally worth it.
i realized that this summer was probably the best time of my life. it had its downs, but overall, it was absolutely amazing. i spent every waking moment with my best friend and made some new best friends in the process.
i'm feeling really emo right now, i feel like i've been a really bad person to the people who mean more to me in my life than anyone. what the fuck is wrong with me?
how can i be honest with other people, when i can't be fucking honest with myself?
i miss kear soo much right now. she is the most intelligent, beautiful, smart and funny person in the world, she is soo important to me, and yet it seems like i treat her like shit all the time. i'm soo tired of fucking our relationship up, because if i lose her, i lose everything.
i remember back when we first started hanging out, and how amazing that was, and all the new feelings i had never felt before. its soo weird. weird to see how we changed. changed in soo many different ways. i never thought she would be as open with me as she is. i take that for granted for sure.
"I guess this is what it's like to be really down
And holding out for something
Remembering the warm nights"
that song was on and they felt fitting.
i miss seton catholic high school. i had the best four years of my life at that school. i made amazing friends. i met a beautiful girl. i learned more than i ever thought i could. i had soo many good times. i miss that place.
college wears on me sometimes, but i know if i wasnt in college, i would be a seriously unhappy person.
i need to stop slacking off and being lazy. its not helping me in the least. there is no reason i shouldnt be at work every day, making money for the stuff i want to do with kear. i'm sick of relying on everyone else. i'm 20 years old and i need to start acting like it.
i really hope and pray i get into temple university.
blah.