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when you asked me i didn't say yes, i said, "are you sure?" because i tried to tell you that i am flighty and fickle and indecisive and that i've never done this before and i don't know who i am as a "girlfriend" and i tell you that yes, i like you, and if you were going to scare me away, you would have most likely done it already and i am sitting cross legged on top of the blanket and i am looking at anything but your eyes and i'm throwing my hands around wildy as i desperately vomit words in an attempt to tell you to everything about me that could eventually ruin this, to make you rethink what you've asked, in hopes that you take it back because i'm just so afraid. and you just reach out and hold my face, press our foreheads together and look into my eyes and said "julia, i'm sure". and i feel happy.