WHo Fucking Cares
So... My mood has been getting lower and lower. It didnt even start becuz of Darien Lake. Things have been goign down hill. Where to begin. Darien Lake, was okay. I went on the UFO for the 1st time. It was fun cept every1 heard me cussin up a storm. Didnt go on the Tornado. To long of a line. Won 2 glass posters by myself! Went to the water park, but didnt go on very many rides. Met up with Scott. He carried my posters. Tried wining me sum things. I watched him in the batting cages. He stole some candy from the candy store! LOL I dont even wanna talk bout the ride home. okay so i will tho. Hmmmm We sat in the same spots as we didn on the way there. So me n melanie were the 1st ones on the bus so we saved Scott Edjo N Jesse their seats in the way way back. And me n melanie sat in the seats infront of them. Then it began. Scott started undoing Melanies top, then Jesse n Edjo joined in. SHe aced liek she wanted them 2 stop then she let them do it. Then she left me and moved next to Kyle, Then Scott was still undoing her top, shoving things *down there*, acting like she was giving him head, then melanie ignored me the rest of the way home. Then Scott was all like "Melanie, U look bangingin that hat, but now u dont cuz u took it off" & " Melanie Saw my Dick" and she moved next to him. He started being an asshole 2 me. I asked him to hand me my poster that was uder his foot. So i reached down n tried getting it n he goes "omg hold on" and "what the fuck". So i moved his foot and he goes "dont even start with me bitch." Then he n melanie just continued on. He was throwing shit down her shirt. He saw her tits. Sheslaughing and smiling and acting like she wants them 2 stop when she did alk 2 me once in a while. I felt liek a fucking idiot on the way home. i was just sitting there, no one 2 talk 2. Looking like a retard. SO I started to talk to Kyle. Kyle likes Melanie. and yesterday at Darien Lake, he won her a big stuffed frog. And asked her out. She never answered him but told me if i found him to tell him yes. That was until we got on the bus. We got on the bus and he hands her a neckalace that spells out her name. And she took it and goes i dont want to go out with him,. SO me n Kyle were just talking bout random stuff. He wa sshowing me what he won. And were both just trying to ignore them. So we get off the bus and Melanie runs and tells Tori what they were doign. She was doing it too. And then I heard ppl sayin taht Scott N Melabie might go out. And the wrose thing was that as i was walking to my car to go home. I heard ppl talking about how Melanie was saying "yeah scott lieks me and Not holly". i dont know if its true or not but im not in a good mood and not happy about it. So thats just mad everything worse. I have been getting worse n worse everyday. Grades dropping, getting in trouble, havin an attitude problem, yelling at ppl, talking shit, havent called friends. And the fact that everytime me n scott fo talk its about my brother, so what does that say? Im so sick of everyone. People and friends telling e what i can and cant do, ppl acting like their my friends when theyre really not. Talking shit behind my back, startin rumors, going out with the guy that ur best friend likes. Yesterday when i got home From DL we went to camp. I didnt do anything i was bored as hell ad my depresion just like mounted to high. I locked myself in my aunts car turned on music n just sat there, I started liek crying and punching shit outta no where. I didnt even kno i was and didnt know why i was crying. I let to many things build up with out talking about it, i drew all over my legs with tthe words " bitch, ugly, fatass, nothing,stupid, lonely, unwanted and loser. I kept reading those words to myself and realized they're true. I realized i have no true friends, nobody cares not even the people who say they do, you cant trust no1 but yourself, and those who say they are your friends arent. Umay say im stupid but I didnt know friends lied to u, went behind ur back, or dated the guy u have liked forever. If i am wrong about something then comment and let me know.