an update...
i had an ok christmas.
i wish i could stop fighting with my dad over petty things, and i wish he would swallow his pride and forgive me.
i dyed my hair today. it's back to being natural. i forgot what i looked like with dark hair. lol.
i'm over brad, sorta. i miss him, and he blocked me on AIM. ok, so maybe we weren't meant to be as far as "together" in any sort of way, but i don't know what i did wrong, and i miss talking to him. he was becoming a good friend of mine..maybe too close, but still we had an innocent friendship. me, the dumb fuck-face was the one who most likely screwed it all up.
my dad's mad at me, because it all started with him being mad at me for not giving my oppinion about how i feel about things...so, he doesn't want to feel like he's lecturing. the truth is that i HATE crying, especially in front of him. so, when i give my oppinion, 8/10 times, i'm bawling within the first 15 seconds of discussion. aaaahhhhh!!!!!!! whatever, blah, and more blah!!!
i went to the bridge last night..it was fun and i was happy to see kaitlyn, but i wished i would've seen kelso too. dana was there, but i don't think she really remembers me, but, it's ok. no grudges.
ooh, i have a new friend that i like. his name is hector garcia. he's an awesome dude. he has steven tyler lips, (which i've already tried out...hehehehe!!) i hope i don't move too fast with this one. i think i'm over the addiction of sex, even though i still miss it. the last time was on halloween, then me and greg broke up.
i'm writing a book. more of a journal, but when i go back on what was said through all of this time, i'm not half bad. who am i kidding?? i suck, but i will get better. i'm writing everyday. i like writing, because i can release everything.
brad got caught with 6 ounces at school, and he told greg that he feels that he hasn't been living a Christian life. i'm happy for him. i hope he stop dealin' dope like he does. even though he hooks me up phat, i don't care. i love brad too much to be greedy, and want him to continue living a life that can lead to one thing...shit!! i've been praying so hard for him...and max as well. i don't think max is christian though. i'm going to talk to brad, and invite him to the bridge. i can't wait.
i got a new cd today. (influenced by sexy man donnely)...dream theater: six degrees of inner turbulance. it's so mega-tight. i love it. it's a 2 cd, and the first cd has only 5 songs on it, the second has 1, that is 42:04 minutes. they remind me so much of pink floyd, and the only band i beleive is worthy of covering ANY floyd song. they did a most excellent job on HEY YOU, much better than, **cough** **cough** limp bizkit's cover of my favorite song..**tear** WISH YOU WERE HERE. i cry when i hear that. i think of the people who have left my life...
1. Michael White
2. Grammy
3. Nnamdi
4. Josh
5. Tracy
6. Wumpus
7. Everybody from camp
8. Where ever CJ Meyers might be
9. I miss Jamie and Kelso
10. Leslie
11. Ron, Erika, and Reef
ah fooie!! no more feeling sad. i am happy and i will love every moment of my life...even the sad points, because they are not horrible if i learn something from them. No matter what happens, i am always going to keep my chin up, and smile. God loves me, and so do some people on this earth. i am satisfied with who i am, and who is in my life. i am now going to approach life with a loving heart and a caring soul. i hope i see you all there.
-sam
"I'll see you on the dark side of the moon!!"
-Pink Floyd
i wish i could stop fighting with my dad over petty things, and i wish he would swallow his pride and forgive me.
i dyed my hair today. it's back to being natural. i forgot what i looked like with dark hair. lol.
i'm over brad, sorta. i miss him, and he blocked me on AIM. ok, so maybe we weren't meant to be as far as "together" in any sort of way, but i don't know what i did wrong, and i miss talking to him. he was becoming a good friend of mine..maybe too close, but still we had an innocent friendship. me, the dumb fuck-face was the one who most likely screwed it all up.
my dad's mad at me, because it all started with him being mad at me for not giving my oppinion about how i feel about things...so, he doesn't want to feel like he's lecturing. the truth is that i HATE crying, especially in front of him. so, when i give my oppinion, 8/10 times, i'm bawling within the first 15 seconds of discussion. aaaahhhhh!!!!!!! whatever, blah, and more blah!!!
i went to the bridge last night..it was fun and i was happy to see kaitlyn, but i wished i would've seen kelso too. dana was there, but i don't think she really remembers me, but, it's ok. no grudges.
ooh, i have a new friend that i like. his name is hector garcia. he's an awesome dude. he has steven tyler lips, (which i've already tried out...hehehehe!!) i hope i don't move too fast with this one. i think i'm over the addiction of sex, even though i still miss it. the last time was on halloween, then me and greg broke up.
i'm writing a book. more of a journal, but when i go back on what was said through all of this time, i'm not half bad. who am i kidding?? i suck, but i will get better. i'm writing everyday. i like writing, because i can release everything.
brad got caught with 6 ounces at school, and he told greg that he feels that he hasn't been living a Christian life. i'm happy for him. i hope he stop dealin' dope like he does. even though he hooks me up phat, i don't care. i love brad too much to be greedy, and want him to continue living a life that can lead to one thing...shit!! i've been praying so hard for him...and max as well. i don't think max is christian though. i'm going to talk to brad, and invite him to the bridge. i can't wait.
i got a new cd today. (influenced by sexy man donnely)...dream theater: six degrees of inner turbulance. it's so mega-tight. i love it. it's a 2 cd, and the first cd has only 5 songs on it, the second has 1, that is 42:04 minutes. they remind me so much of pink floyd, and the only band i beleive is worthy of covering ANY floyd song. they did a most excellent job on HEY YOU, much better than, **cough** **cough** limp bizkit's cover of my favorite song..**tear** WISH YOU WERE HERE. i cry when i hear that. i think of the people who have left my life...
1. Michael White
2. Grammy
3. Nnamdi
4. Josh
5. Tracy
6. Wumpus
7. Everybody from camp
8. Where ever CJ Meyers might be
9. I miss Jamie and Kelso
10. Leslie
11. Ron, Erika, and Reef
ah fooie!! no more feeling sad. i am happy and i will love every moment of my life...even the sad points, because they are not horrible if i learn something from them. No matter what happens, i am always going to keep my chin up, and smile. God loves me, and so do some people on this earth. i am satisfied with who i am, and who is in my life. i am now going to approach life with a loving heart and a caring soul. i hope i see you all there.
-sam
"I'll see you on the dark side of the moon!!"
-Pink Floyd