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Well..I didnt get enough of the 'Why did you delete your journal' comments.
To be honest..
I'm pretty much tired of it, really.
I'm sick of my pointless entries, and getting lame fucking comments.
So for now on.
This journal,..is comment free.
And I'm gonna be talking about some serious shit that goes on through my head, Shit that I think about each day.
For one..
I'd like to say my name ..'xgunsandknivesx' is tacky, and I hate it. I wish I could just have a new name/start a new journal.
But oh well, fuck it.
For two..
I'd like to say, I'm not going to hide shit, it's only going to be truthful, and I really couldn't give a shit about who's feelings I hurt, or what I wasn't 'supposed' to say, or who's promise I broke.
Fuck it, life's to short for that shit.
For the most part of my life, I am not happy at all.
I'm trying to go through some things to help me change that.
I dont like where I live. I dont like the fact that I've been single since March,..and that I quite possibly have the biggest crush on a girl,.. who is just..way out of my league to begin with. I hate the fact that I'm not in college anymore.I hate the fact I owe soo much money to different bills. I hate the fact that I dont have a car. I hate the fact that I dont make as much money as a used to. I fucking hate the fact that I never have food to eat. And I hate the fact that there is always people around me that I care about..but I am just soo sick of being around them.
That shit fucking kills me.
There is way too much drama in my life, shit that should have been left behind in high school when we all graduated.
So for one..
I'm paying Danny the money I owe him at the end of this month, and I'm planning on moving back in with my parents. That way..I will have a car. I will be saving money. I will have food to eat. I wont be surrounded by all my friends constantly. I can support myself, and go back to school.
And, ..as for the girl... Well.. I'm making her a mixtape. Which is all I can really do.
Her 'The Greatest lovers were murders first.' mixtape consist of..
1.)Halloween sample (screams and such.)
2.)'Protect ya neck' - Wu-Tang Clan
3.)'Watch Me' - 7L & Esoteric
4.)'Feelin Ignorant' - Cannibal Ox & RJD2
5.)'Scream Phoenix' - Cannibal Ox
6.)'Flava for ya ear (Remix)' - The Bad Boy Family.
7.)'The Militia' - Gang Starr
8.)'Simon Says' - Pharaohe Monch
9.)'Cream' - Wu-Tang Clan
10.)'36 Chambers' - Wu-Tang Clan
11.)'Skills 101' - Reks, Esoteric, & J-Live
12.)'Blood runs cold Ft. Sean Price' - Jedi Mind Tricks
13.)'Killah bees' - Bobby Digital & Inspectah Deck (Wu-Tang Clan)
14.)'Gravel Pit' - Wu-Tang Clan
15.)'War Ensemble' - Army of the Pharoah
16.)'One blood under W' - Wu-Tang Clan
17.)'Labcabincalifornia' - Pharsyde
18.)Halloween Sample (Screaming)
Hopefully, she'll like it/me a whole lot.
To be honest..
I'm pretty much tired of it, really.
I'm sick of my pointless entries, and getting lame fucking comments.
So for now on.
This journal,..is comment free.
And I'm gonna be talking about some serious shit that goes on through my head, Shit that I think about each day.
For one..
I'd like to say my name ..'xgunsandknivesx' is tacky, and I hate it. I wish I could just have a new name/start a new journal.
But oh well, fuck it.
For two..
I'd like to say, I'm not going to hide shit, it's only going to be truthful, and I really couldn't give a shit about who's feelings I hurt, or what I wasn't 'supposed' to say, or who's promise I broke.
Fuck it, life's to short for that shit.
For the most part of my life, I am not happy at all.
I'm trying to go through some things to help me change that.
I dont like where I live. I dont like the fact that I've been single since March,..and that I quite possibly have the biggest crush on a girl,.. who is just..way out of my league to begin with. I hate the fact that I'm not in college anymore.I hate the fact I owe soo much money to different bills. I hate the fact that I dont have a car. I hate the fact that I dont make as much money as a used to. I fucking hate the fact that I never have food to eat. And I hate the fact that there is always people around me that I care about..but I am just soo sick of being around them.
That shit fucking kills me.
There is way too much drama in my life, shit that should have been left behind in high school when we all graduated.
So for one..
I'm paying Danny the money I owe him at the end of this month, and I'm planning on moving back in with my parents. That way..I will have a car. I will be saving money. I will have food to eat. I wont be surrounded by all my friends constantly. I can support myself, and go back to school.
And, ..as for the girl... Well.. I'm making her a mixtape. Which is all I can really do.
Her 'The Greatest lovers were murders first.' mixtape consist of..
1.)Halloween sample (screams and such.)
2.)'Protect ya neck' - Wu-Tang Clan
3.)'Watch Me' - 7L & Esoteric
4.)'Feelin Ignorant' - Cannibal Ox & RJD2
5.)'Scream Phoenix' - Cannibal Ox
6.)'Flava for ya ear (Remix)' - The Bad Boy Family.
7.)'The Militia' - Gang Starr
8.)'Simon Says' - Pharaohe Monch
9.)'Cream' - Wu-Tang Clan
10.)'36 Chambers' - Wu-Tang Clan
11.)'Skills 101' - Reks, Esoteric, & J-Live
12.)'Blood runs cold Ft. Sean Price' - Jedi Mind Tricks
13.)'Killah bees' - Bobby Digital & Inspectah Deck (Wu-Tang Clan)
14.)'Gravel Pit' - Wu-Tang Clan
15.)'War Ensemble' - Army of the Pharoah
16.)'One blood under W' - Wu-Tang Clan
17.)'Labcabincalifornia' - Pharsyde
18.)Halloween Sample (Screaming)
Hopefully, she'll like it/me a whole lot.