wishful thinking

[xgundownboyx]

apparently im suppose to feel
like my heart is throbbing
on the floor,
next to the broken picture frame
of a lost love.
my feelings however are mixed.
i am quite distant from the notion of love at the moment.
that should put many demons away.
i have love in my heart.
for i give my thanks every day.
the girl that i loved, love
is mapping her way to becoming a woman.
although the road is long and dangerous
its hard for me to be an aide
when my help is constantly neglected.
i know she will turn out to be the best any woman could ever be.
though more than likely for another man.
my heart does ache
though the scars have been delivered
year after year.
i wanna believe in starting over
but will you erase everything and everyone...
and make it a past?
its unlikely that you would
so i don't bother to annoy or beg.
instead give you space.
if you should request for my presence
you know where to find me.
but you should be ready
for i wear mine vividly and proud
on my sleeve is where you will find it.
you could place your's next to mine
we could only assume they would be a matching pair.
for this is wishful thinking
its only wishful thinking.
time will tell what kinda women you will be.

RING!
RING!
"get better soon.
goodnight"