oh man. Senior Year Part ONE.
so. this year. it's insane. I slacked off, did shitty, the past three years, and now I somehow believe if I work my ass off my sr. year, it'll all be ok. No Felicia. That's not how it works. Dumbass.
The thing is, I can't even see myself getting into UB, or any school in the matter, so really, I'm not trying that hard. But I am getting really good grades believe it or not. Maybe it's a physcological thing. Maybe if you just want something that bad, but your mind is telling you that there's no way you'll get it, you end up getting it cus something turned on. I'm not making any sense.
My friends have been pretty amazing this year I'd have to say.
Great Friends:
Tyler. hahahaha. We are best friends that aren't afraid to lash out on each other, or take a problem out on each other when it has nothing to do with the other person. We understand. I help him out, he helps me out. It's a good relationship.
Amanda. Love this girl to death. Us two, we're so similiar it's not even funny. It's great how much she trusts me, and vice versa. I'm not afraid to say anything around her. I know she'll always be there for me.
Tamar. This little monkey always keeps me looking on the bright side. She always wants me to find someone worth having, I know this because she gets mad at me if I just give up on a potential relationship. She's so funny.
Marty. He knows how to take care of me. He's potentailly the best person I've ever met in my life. I think that speaks for itself.
Nikki. OH man, she's exactly like me, but more adventurous. I just feel we can never hang out. I don't know what it is. But I love this girl to death, I know she'll do anything for me. I just hope her life get's easier on her.
My other friends:
Becky. We used to be amazing friends, sisters almost. Something happened. She changed, maybe I did as well. I don't know. I mean, I enjoyed the times we had together, maybe there will be more this year. All I know is, I hate to lose a friend.
Rose. You can be a good friend. You just tend to hurt people, or piss them off. I'm just going to be completely flat out honest now. You are a mean, spoiled brat. and I mean that with all sincerity. Don't take that in a wrong way, I'm just telling you cus I really do appreciate and love you. Just try to work on those things cus girl, your personality works wonders.
Lynn. I would love for you to be my best friend, like sophmore year, oh man. that was a bad AWFUL year for me, but you made it better in so many ways. You made me laugh, and grow up a little in the end believe it or not.
Mary. I feel we are good friends, but it's just to fresh of a relationship to get have a lasting bond, possibly by the end of the year we will feel the great friendship that I've felt with my other friends. It's just too bad other things have almost risked our friendship.
alright. so I just went to dinner.
it was a great dinner. at first. then I just said some things I shouldn't have said to my mom. She just pisses me off so much. I can't stand it anymore. I just want to get out just to be away from her. Honestly, I understand that she does everything for me, and I should be thankful for that-I am. But she just pisses me off for being a bipolar bitch. I mean THIS is why I never want to be home when she's home. No one understands. This is retarded. My brother get's it. He's about the only other one that would. I'm just so frusturated, this is the last thing I need. I mean it would be different if she would here what I had to say about things, but because she is just one sided-Fuck it. It's rediculous mom, I'm 17. You know how old I'll be on April 4th 2009? Old enough to do whatever the hell I want. I'll be 18 years old. And I do know right from wrong mom. I understand consequences, I know about the world and everything that could kick you down when you're on it's darkside. JUST LET ME GROW UP for christs sake.
Now I'm actually considering a college 5 states away just to get away from her cynical mind set.
this is retarded.
The thing is, I can't even see myself getting into UB, or any school in the matter, so really, I'm not trying that hard. But I am getting really good grades believe it or not. Maybe it's a physcological thing. Maybe if you just want something that bad, but your mind is telling you that there's no way you'll get it, you end up getting it cus something turned on. I'm not making any sense.
My friends have been pretty amazing this year I'd have to say.
Great Friends:
Tyler. hahahaha. We are best friends that aren't afraid to lash out on each other, or take a problem out on each other when it has nothing to do with the other person. We understand. I help him out, he helps me out. It's a good relationship.
Amanda. Love this girl to death. Us two, we're so similiar it's not even funny. It's great how much she trusts me, and vice versa. I'm not afraid to say anything around her. I know she'll always be there for me.
Tamar. This little monkey always keeps me looking on the bright side. She always wants me to find someone worth having, I know this because she gets mad at me if I just give up on a potential relationship. She's so funny.
Marty. He knows how to take care of me. He's potentailly the best person I've ever met in my life. I think that speaks for itself.
Nikki. OH man, she's exactly like me, but more adventurous. I just feel we can never hang out. I don't know what it is. But I love this girl to death, I know she'll do anything for me. I just hope her life get's easier on her.
My other friends:
Becky. We used to be amazing friends, sisters almost. Something happened. She changed, maybe I did as well. I don't know. I mean, I enjoyed the times we had together, maybe there will be more this year. All I know is, I hate to lose a friend.
Rose. You can be a good friend. You just tend to hurt people, or piss them off. I'm just going to be completely flat out honest now. You are a mean, spoiled brat. and I mean that with all sincerity. Don't take that in a wrong way, I'm just telling you cus I really do appreciate and love you. Just try to work on those things cus girl, your personality works wonders.
Lynn. I would love for you to be my best friend, like sophmore year, oh man. that was a bad AWFUL year for me, but you made it better in so many ways. You made me laugh, and grow up a little in the end believe it or not.
Mary. I feel we are good friends, but it's just to fresh of a relationship to get have a lasting bond, possibly by the end of the year we will feel the great friendship that I've felt with my other friends. It's just too bad other things have almost risked our friendship.
alright. so I just went to dinner.
it was a great dinner. at first. then I just said some things I shouldn't have said to my mom. She just pisses me off so much. I can't stand it anymore. I just want to get out just to be away from her. Honestly, I understand that she does everything for me, and I should be thankful for that-I am. But she just pisses me off for being a bipolar bitch. I mean THIS is why I never want to be home when she's home. No one understands. This is retarded. My brother get's it. He's about the only other one that would. I'm just so frusturated, this is the last thing I need. I mean it would be different if she would here what I had to say about things, but because she is just one sided-Fuck it. It's rediculous mom, I'm 17. You know how old I'll be on April 4th 2009? Old enough to do whatever the hell I want. I'll be 18 years old. And I do know right from wrong mom. I understand consequences, I know about the world and everything that could kick you down when you're on it's darkside. JUST LET ME GROW UP for christs sake.
Now I'm actually considering a college 5 states away just to get away from her cynical mind set.
this is retarded.