One hell of a weekend.......
As if the days could get any worse.....
THURSDAY: All I can really remember is school, and then going home. I did homework and just hung out I guess. Computer, phone, you know. Um...then out of all the people on this earth, my dad took me shopping. I bought a shirt for Friday. Then knowing my mom wanted a certain cd, I bought it for her. I have no clue what came over me, but then again I didn't pay for it. Oh well.....
FRIDAY: Halloween!!!!!!! 1st period was the best! I loved playing with the sounds of horse racing! hehehehehe Jane, Nick and Adam. We're such nerds! Nick made a song before the horses started racing and Jane too. I made some really weird "song" that well, was really creepy. o0o0o0o it was sooooooo much fun! Then periods 2-7 sucked so bad and I was just completely bored and I lost myself. 3 period (which I can actually remember) I was overcome by my stomach hurting and just completely killing me. But then 8 & 9 period, double bio, was soooo much fun! Me, and Kelly were throwing nerds at Adam and Rich. The Tim hit me in the face with a KitKat bar, which I kept. So Adam chucked the whole nerds box at me spilling them everywhere!!! He got in trouble by the sub and had to clean them up! hehehehehe! It was sooooo funny....Then after school I walked to jesse's house. We were supposed to go with Cassie, Nick, Kasey, Rob, Anthony and I dunno even know who else. It was just mad chaos about who "was" and who "wasn't" going. After a while, I dunno I didn't feel like going anymore. I wanted to go sooooooo bad the whole week. Then I don't know what happened. Cassie called my cell and I was on the edge of crying, but somehow I remarkably held it all in. Then I ended up going with Jesse, Rob, and Naiomi. I was so lost that night. My stomach kept hurting and sometimes while walking, I'd clench my stomach and become struck with pain. I wasn't really interested in the candy and sugar and everything. When we got back, me and Jesse went to my house and watched movies and after a while he left. Then I was in pain. I needed sleep.....
Friday turned into ->Saturday...1 A.M. woke up....3 A.M. woke up....5 A.M. woke up....7 A.M. woke up....then my mom woke up me up around 9:30. She told me to get up because I had to ref. That's when I remembered. I had a dream that night. I remembered it too. Now I can't remember even what it had to do with. I just remember I was in it....and someone else was too. I just can't remember who. Well anyway, I told my mom I wasn't reffing and that I had enough of it. She said whatever and I called the guy in charge and said I quit. He said no problem and that was the end of it. My mom called my dad and told him what I had done. I'm supposed to be punished, yet I don't even know what from. Yeah, and my dad also said I'm not allowed to play in tomorrow's game. Oh well. It's a loss for my team then. I can care less about that right now. So...my dear mother says I have to clean my room and empty the dishwasher and other stuff. Then I would have to stay in my room all day. Ok....so I did everything. Maybe if you count stepping on your on mirror and cracking it, breaking a nail (well nbd really), losing my cd, ripping one of my favorite shirts is wonderful....omg. Yes, well while cleaning my room, my mom calls my aunt to talk to her about something. All I heard while I was in my room was my mom very emotional and saying stuff about "a doctor" and "results will come next week" and "are the boys ok?" (refering to my cousins) I had no clue what was going on. So after my mom gets off the phone I asked her what that was all about. She said my uncle, who is my godfather, has colon cancer. Speechless, I walk slowly back to my room. I couldn't think. I just took my book out and started reading. After a while, my hands started shaking and then it snaked down my body. I sat up and the shaking stopped. Then slowly I laid back down to read. The trembling of my body started once more. This time, I jumped to my feet and the shaking stopped again. But then I became dizzy and I fell to my floor. I thought I had fainted but for what felt like a split second, I saw memories from a day to years past. I knew I hadn't fainted or passed out because I could see my bedroom walls and my books on the floor. I saw everything in my room just the same as before. I couldn't explain why I fell. I laid there for several minutes thinking. I remembered all the meomory flashes as if they had happened yesterday. Then I thought about my uncle and how he could feel right now. My heart just ached. Suddenly one of my thoughts struck hard. I feel like something or someone is trying to take everything I love away from me. But what is it? Or who is it? What the hell is going on?.....I'm losing everything! Including people.....
It's time to fight back. Yeahh, well what am I fighting?
THURSDAY: All I can really remember is school, and then going home. I did homework and just hung out I guess. Computer, phone, you know. Um...then out of all the people on this earth, my dad took me shopping. I bought a shirt for Friday. Then knowing my mom wanted a certain cd, I bought it for her. I have no clue what came over me, but then again I didn't pay for it. Oh well.....
FRIDAY: Halloween!!!!!!! 1st period was the best! I loved playing with the sounds of horse racing! hehehehehe Jane, Nick and Adam. We're such nerds! Nick made a song before the horses started racing and Jane too. I made some really weird "song" that well, was really creepy. o0o0o0o it was sooooooo much fun! Then periods 2-7 sucked so bad and I was just completely bored and I lost myself. 3 period (which I can actually remember) I was overcome by my stomach hurting and just completely killing me. But then 8 & 9 period, double bio, was soooo much fun! Me, and Kelly were throwing nerds at Adam and Rich. The Tim hit me in the face with a KitKat bar, which I kept. So Adam chucked the whole nerds box at me spilling them everywhere!!! He got in trouble by the sub and had to clean them up! hehehehehe! It was sooooo funny....Then after school I walked to jesse's house. We were supposed to go with Cassie, Nick, Kasey, Rob, Anthony and I dunno even know who else. It was just mad chaos about who "was" and who "wasn't" going. After a while, I dunno I didn't feel like going anymore. I wanted to go sooooooo bad the whole week. Then I don't know what happened. Cassie called my cell and I was on the edge of crying, but somehow I remarkably held it all in. Then I ended up going with Jesse, Rob, and Naiomi. I was so lost that night. My stomach kept hurting and sometimes while walking, I'd clench my stomach and become struck with pain. I wasn't really interested in the candy and sugar and everything. When we got back, me and Jesse went to my house and watched movies and after a while he left. Then I was in pain. I needed sleep.....
Friday turned into ->Saturday...1 A.M. woke up....3 A.M. woke up....5 A.M. woke up....7 A.M. woke up....then my mom woke up me up around 9:30. She told me to get up because I had to ref. That's when I remembered. I had a dream that night. I remembered it too. Now I can't remember even what it had to do with. I just remember I was in it....and someone else was too. I just can't remember who. Well anyway, I told my mom I wasn't reffing and that I had enough of it. She said whatever and I called the guy in charge and said I quit. He said no problem and that was the end of it. My mom called my dad and told him what I had done. I'm supposed to be punished, yet I don't even know what from. Yeah, and my dad also said I'm not allowed to play in tomorrow's game. Oh well. It's a loss for my team then. I can care less about that right now. So...my dear mother says I have to clean my room and empty the dishwasher and other stuff. Then I would have to stay in my room all day. Ok....so I did everything. Maybe if you count stepping on your on mirror and cracking it, breaking a nail (well nbd really), losing my cd, ripping one of my favorite shirts is wonderful....omg. Yes, well while cleaning my room, my mom calls my aunt to talk to her about something. All I heard while I was in my room was my mom very emotional and saying stuff about "a doctor" and "results will come next week" and "are the boys ok?" (refering to my cousins) I had no clue what was going on. So after my mom gets off the phone I asked her what that was all about. She said my uncle, who is my godfather, has colon cancer. Speechless, I walk slowly back to my room. I couldn't think. I just took my book out and started reading. After a while, my hands started shaking and then it snaked down my body. I sat up and the shaking stopped. Then slowly I laid back down to read. The trembling of my body started once more. This time, I jumped to my feet and the shaking stopped again. But then I became dizzy and I fell to my floor. I thought I had fainted but for what felt like a split second, I saw memories from a day to years past. I knew I hadn't fainted or passed out because I could see my bedroom walls and my books on the floor. I saw everything in my room just the same as before. I couldn't explain why I fell. I laid there for several minutes thinking. I remembered all the meomory flashes as if they had happened yesterday. Then I thought about my uncle and how he could feel right now. My heart just ached. Suddenly one of my thoughts struck hard. I feel like something or someone is trying to take everything I love away from me. But what is it? Or who is it? What the hell is going on?.....I'm losing everything! Including people.....
It's time to fight back. Yeahh, well what am I fighting?