I've smiled, and laughed, and giggled....now everything's ok....
I've thought through sooooooooo many things and I just came to these conclusions:
I'm not as obsessed as you think I am.....If you seriously think I'm going to hurt myself then you're all wrong. I wouldn't hurt myself. I'm not someone who thinks about killing themself or seriously injuring. I exaggerate everything! Maybe if everyone talked to me about this whole thing, maybe you coulld make me feel a lil better. I just feel depressed now cuz I'm just lost, and still trying to find myself. I'm ok guys. I really am. Why does everyone think I'm sooooo obsessed?? Second of all, Kasey, I don't hate you. You're really nice and funny and cool to talk to. If I hated you, I wouldn't have sat with you during lunch today. lol. You're welcome to sit with me, kelly and kandyce anyday. Then we'll kick kristen's fuckin ass. lol. But getting back to what I was saying, you're a really nice person and friend even though I don't know you that much. Now, Anthony. Thanks for caring a lot. I was really happy and shocked to see that you replied to my entry. It made me feel good to see that you can still be my friend. Jesse, it's so great to see how you care so much about me. I can't thank you enough and there's just not enough words to explain that I really mean it. Cassie.....you're just soooo great! I can always count on you. A year, not that bad. Lol. we've had our great times together and I'll be there for you like you were for me. Math is great, and theres so much you say to me that makes me smile. Kandyce, Kandyce, Kandyce. Heyy, you make fun of me in lunch, ((LOL)) but you still make me laugh about myself. Thinking how stupid I can really be sometimes. Nick, well....it's been a long road buddy. Good luck with Kasey. I like her a lot. She's really cool and funny. Second of all, PLEASE DONT think that I want to/ or that I'm trying to make you feel bad about me. Please don't. I'm not like that. Just because I like you, and you don't care in that same way...I can always be your friend. Friends don't make their friends feel bad for each other. I wouldn't do that. Next, I couldn't hurt myself, no matter how much I could try. I would be wayyyyyy too scared to anyway. Ending my life, def not. Esp. when I have a lot ahead of me. I'll get thru high school now, then get off this damn island and go to college somewhere else. I know I have you guys and that's it. I know sometimes I can be conceited and stubborn. Some people tell me that they don't believe I am that way. Well, depends on which way you put it I guess. Well, I took my chance, and you took yours. Mine ususally don't work out the way I want them to, and you seem to get lucky and have yours always become right. Finally, last but def not least.....kelly......a.k.a. kJoy 98.3.....a.k.a. kJ......a.k.a. john"s"ton......yeahh....well you know what? You're the best! I love you sooooooooooo much! I could never ask for a better second family. You've been there and I know I had tried to shut you out, including everyone else. I guess I realized that some people really do give a shit. I guess I was just so upset that I didn't rememeber this is what happens in high school. It's a whole new big world out there. I guess maybe I was afraid of it, and now I'm starting to think that you can't do it all alone. Kel, you're like my big sis really. Or little sis, or twin sis, w.e.! Depending on what's going on in our lives will tell you. lol. And if kevin does anything again I swear I'll kick his Abercrombie ass all the way back to Richville! lol. You're the best! Thanks for being there sis!
Sometimes I felt like I was scared and couldn't go through anything. Even the smallest things. I was so afraid and overreacted because I felt like I lost everything all over again. Now I realize I wasn't the one who lost. Things did go from bad to worse in three days. And I saw that things went from worse to better in three hours. Some people really do care about you. I was too blind to see that. I felt like no one cared at all. Inside I knew I wasn't going to hurt myself. On the outside.....I don't know what the hell happened there. Now that you guys know, please believe me. Don't think I am so hurt I'll so something drastic. I'll be ok I promise. If you don't believe me, I'll take an oath tomorrow right in front of you, and in front of everyone else.
I promise I'll be ok. See me smile tomorrow......
The first day I've really smiled.....:)
I'm not as obsessed as you think I am.....If you seriously think I'm going to hurt myself then you're all wrong. I wouldn't hurt myself. I'm not someone who thinks about killing themself or seriously injuring. I exaggerate everything! Maybe if everyone talked to me about this whole thing, maybe you coulld make me feel a lil better. I just feel depressed now cuz I'm just lost, and still trying to find myself. I'm ok guys. I really am. Why does everyone think I'm sooooo obsessed?? Second of all, Kasey, I don't hate you. You're really nice and funny and cool to talk to. If I hated you, I wouldn't have sat with you during lunch today. lol. You're welcome to sit with me, kelly and kandyce anyday. Then we'll kick kristen's fuckin ass. lol. But getting back to what I was saying, you're a really nice person and friend even though I don't know you that much. Now, Anthony. Thanks for caring a lot. I was really happy and shocked to see that you replied to my entry. It made me feel good to see that you can still be my friend. Jesse, it's so great to see how you care so much about me. I can't thank you enough and there's just not enough words to explain that I really mean it. Cassie.....you're just soooo great! I can always count on you. A year, not that bad. Lol. we've had our great times together and I'll be there for you like you were for me. Math is great, and theres so much you say to me that makes me smile. Kandyce, Kandyce, Kandyce. Heyy, you make fun of me in lunch, ((LOL)) but you still make me laugh about myself. Thinking how stupid I can really be sometimes. Nick, well....it's been a long road buddy. Good luck with Kasey. I like her a lot. She's really cool and funny. Second of all, PLEASE DONT think that I want to/ or that I'm trying to make you feel bad about me. Please don't. I'm not like that. Just because I like you, and you don't care in that same way...I can always be your friend. Friends don't make their friends feel bad for each other. I wouldn't do that. Next, I couldn't hurt myself, no matter how much I could try. I would be wayyyyyy too scared to anyway. Ending my life, def not. Esp. when I have a lot ahead of me. I'll get thru high school now, then get off this damn island and go to college somewhere else. I know I have you guys and that's it. I know sometimes I can be conceited and stubborn. Some people tell me that they don't believe I am that way. Well, depends on which way you put it I guess. Well, I took my chance, and you took yours. Mine ususally don't work out the way I want them to, and you seem to get lucky and have yours always become right. Finally, last but def not least.....kelly......a.k.a. kJoy 98.3.....a.k.a. kJ......a.k.a. john"s"ton......yeahh....well you know what? You're the best! I love you sooooooooooo much! I could never ask for a better second family. You've been there and I know I had tried to shut you out, including everyone else. I guess I realized that some people really do give a shit. I guess I was just so upset that I didn't rememeber this is what happens in high school. It's a whole new big world out there. I guess maybe I was afraid of it, and now I'm starting to think that you can't do it all alone. Kel, you're like my big sis really. Or little sis, or twin sis, w.e.! Depending on what's going on in our lives will tell you. lol. And if kevin does anything again I swear I'll kick his Abercrombie ass all the way back to Richville! lol. You're the best! Thanks for being there sis!
Sometimes I felt like I was scared and couldn't go through anything. Even the smallest things. I was so afraid and overreacted because I felt like I lost everything all over again. Now I realize I wasn't the one who lost. Things did go from bad to worse in three days. And I saw that things went from worse to better in three hours. Some people really do care about you. I was too blind to see that. I felt like no one cared at all. Inside I knew I wasn't going to hurt myself. On the outside.....I don't know what the hell happened there. Now that you guys know, please believe me. Don't think I am so hurt I'll so something drastic. I'll be ok I promise. If you don't believe me, I'll take an oath tomorrow right in front of you, and in front of everyone else.
I promise I'll be ok. See me smile tomorrow......
The first day I've really smiled.....:)