Every chance I get, I leave my house.......
I can say things have gotten slighty better, and that small amount is def. better than before. I can tell that my mom is really trying to get her life back to *normal*. We'll see what happens. But then there are arguements every now and then. There are also arguements in which my parents don't think that I hear and see. What to do.....every chance I get, I try to leave my house.......and for a split second, I think I'm crazy......it's steering me right to \\insanity//
Okay, I believe yesterday was Friday. I was so conjested in my nose. It's all of my allergies, so I'm ok. I went to Cassie's house around 7. It was me, Nick, Jesse and Cas. We played cards with the five packs that I brought. Well, three since the other two had some cards missing. Um.....we played "demon" and a bit of Spit, Go"ld" Fish, and Old Maid. It was pretty amusing. Then we sat around and talked for a while. Nick left around 10. Me and Jesse weren't leaving until 11 so we sat in cassie's room and talked most of the time. Most of it was about my parents, and stuff; not to be selfish but it sorta helped my emotions a lil bit. I was crying a bit, but not much. It's really difficult talking about them, and the rest of my "life". Yeahhh, so then me and jesse left around 11, and I came home to my mom sittingon the computer, dad watching tv, sister sleeping in my bed, and my brother asked to play cards with me. So I changed into my pj's and laid down on the floor just thinking. I was still conjested and I became pretty dizzy. I think my brother came into my room and asked what I was doing before we played cards. I actually don't remember much of last night when I came home. I went to bed really late though; idk what time.......
Today: I woke up aroundddddddd..........12?? or 12:30?? idk...w/e. I basically spent the day cleaning the downstairs which will be my room. I was still pretty conjested so I stayed home while my parents went to Home Depot for our new doors. I'm getting a new door! WITH A LOCK ON IT!!! YAY! Let's see, what else did I do?? Um.........I made a list of CD's for xmas, since my mom said to write some stuff down for "Santa".......right.......Oh yeahh, I told my brother that santa isn't real since he "didn't know". I was basically on the computer, and listening to music, blah blah blah.......that's about it. Yeahh, what a great day...........::sigh::.........tonight I'm going to my aunt's house. Joy. Someone save me! Call the cell.......
*Wishing when you'll [s t o p] dreaming, so you'd see »who« really stands before you*
Okay, I believe yesterday was Friday. I was so conjested in my nose. It's all of my allergies, so I'm ok. I went to Cassie's house around 7. It was me, Nick, Jesse and Cas. We played cards with the five packs that I brought. Well, three since the other two had some cards missing. Um.....we played "demon" and a bit of Spit, Go"ld" Fish, and Old Maid. It was pretty amusing. Then we sat around and talked for a while. Nick left around 10. Me and Jesse weren't leaving until 11 so we sat in cassie's room and talked most of the time. Most of it was about my parents, and stuff; not to be selfish but it sorta helped my emotions a lil bit. I was crying a bit, but not much. It's really difficult talking about them, and the rest of my "life". Yeahhh, so then me and jesse left around 11, and I came home to my mom sittingon the computer, dad watching tv, sister sleeping in my bed, and my brother asked to play cards with me. So I changed into my pj's and laid down on the floor just thinking. I was still conjested and I became pretty dizzy. I think my brother came into my room and asked what I was doing before we played cards. I actually don't remember much of last night when I came home. I went to bed really late though; idk what time.......
Today: I woke up aroundddddddd..........12?? or 12:30?? idk...w/e. I basically spent the day cleaning the downstairs which will be my room. I was still pretty conjested so I stayed home while my parents went to Home Depot for our new doors. I'm getting a new door! WITH A LOCK ON IT!!! YAY! Let's see, what else did I do?? Um.........I made a list of CD's for xmas, since my mom said to write some stuff down for "Santa".......right.......Oh yeahh, I told my brother that santa isn't real since he "didn't know". I was basically on the computer, and listening to music, blah blah blah.......that's about it. Yeahh, what a great day...........::sigh::.........tonight I'm going to my aunt's house. Joy. Someone save me! Call the cell.......
*Wishing when you'll [s t o p] dreaming, so you'd see »who« really stands before you*