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[xgreen_bananax]

Im back from vacation :/ It was really nice and relaxing, which makes coming home suck. I found out on Wednesday that both my sister and I didn't get into Jazz Choir, which is honestly an outraaaaaage. My sister was in it for two years, and yeah her audition was not as good as she usually sounds, but the director *knows* her voice. She had about three solos this year, one of which reoccured in the song three times. She got kicked out, after two years of dedication, while some girls who just don;t even give a fuck got in. And I didn;t get in, after having a pretty kick-ass audition and trying my absolute hardest in choir and in audition for the past three years. It fucking sucks not getting something I know I deserve while people who don't even care are allowed to be in. To make it worse, some people had worse auditions than my sister and I, and one kid can't even fucking sing! I'm talking to my choir teacher after school tomorrow, to get some answers and to try to make him feel terrible. I'm sick of being nice when I'm pissed off. And I'm sick of feeling worthless. Suck my nonexistant dick, Mr. L.
I also have a shitload of school work to make up when I get back, and finals to study for. I wish I was back on the beach....

In better news, I'm starting to develop an idea of what I want to do with the rest of my life! I'm thinking maybe wildlife biologist, marine biologist, or something like that. I want to travel and work out in the field and cool shit like that. I'm seeing Rutgers over the summer, adn their science programs are supposed to be good, so hopefully that works out! =]