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I've decided to make this coming school year a great one. I'm turning things around, internally. I'm making an effort to remain optimistic, and I'm going to try to like myself. I need more confidence, but I can't depend on other people to make me feel good about myself. It's all up to me. I'm going to tell myself that I'm beautiful. I'm going to believe in myself. I'm going to go with the flow and remain happy despite some shitty things. I'm letting go of old grudges and preconcieved notions. I'm looking for only the best in people. I'm doing what I want, regardless of what people think or say aobut me. Even though I have some downer friends, I'm not going to let their pessimism rain on my parade :)
School starts Tuesday. I'm a bit nervous, but as you can see, I'm excited. I have such a good feeling about this year because I'm going to make the very best of it. It's going to be hard, with AP Physics, AP English, AP American History, Pre-Calc BC Honors, college-level Spanish, not to mention all the extea shit I'll be doing, but I'm not going to let it overwhelm me. I know I'm intelligent, and if I do worse in classes than usual, I'll remind myself that it's just one grade. I'm going to be calm and cheerful and confident and friendly and prove all my cynical friends wrong. People are good at heart, and I want to reflect that as well as find proof of it.
I'm so hopeful in the romance department, too. I'm not looking for an omgtwulove, but I would like to find someone to love and care for and be with. I'm young, yes, but I haven;t had a real boyfriend before. I think this is the year, partially due to this surge of confidence.
Sorry for this blob of optimism and happy, and if you disagree with this brand new outlook, that's okay. I just wanted to express how I feel right now :)
School starts Tuesday. I'm a bit nervous, but as you can see, I'm excited. I have such a good feeling about this year because I'm going to make the very best of it. It's going to be hard, with AP Physics, AP English, AP American History, Pre-Calc BC Honors, college-level Spanish, not to mention all the extea shit I'll be doing, but I'm not going to let it overwhelm me. I know I'm intelligent, and if I do worse in classes than usual, I'll remind myself that it's just one grade. I'm going to be calm and cheerful and confident and friendly and prove all my cynical friends wrong. People are good at heart, and I want to reflect that as well as find proof of it.
I'm so hopeful in the romance department, too. I'm not looking for an omgtwulove, but I would like to find someone to love and care for and be with. I'm young, yes, but I haven;t had a real boyfriend before. I think this is the year, partially due to this surge of confidence.
Sorry for this blob of optimism and happy, and if you disagree with this brand new outlook, that's okay. I just wanted to express how I feel right now :)