Another One Bites the Dust
My worst fears are truth. I feel sick to my stomach. I can't believe it happened AGAIN! Twice in one summer, one to start and one to close. Leaving Elise and Ryan together alone was a bad idea and I knew it but I did it anyway. I thought I could trusth them but I was so terribly wrong. They hooked up at the very least. Me and Huff have suspicions that they did more.. like sex. Ever since Elise fucked Rory she has been fucking addicted to it and has wanted to fuck anything with a penis.. or at least thats how she made it sound when we were driving around.
Elise and I hung out Monday night. She kind of tricked me into it because she said lets hang out and when I got there it was oh by the way were meeting the guy I like at Cheeburger Cheeburger in Frazer. On the way over she told me that she played 21 questions with Ryan and how he was a keeper and I was so lucky to have him. Then she says that she asked him about his shlong and it was huge and perfect, 7 inches and big around. I asked if she saw it she said yes. I actually thanked her... I THANKED HER FOR FUCKING THE BOY I LIKED!! I feel so dumb right now. I thought I was thanking her for setting stuff up for me between me and him. But no. She just kept saying about how she thinks hes a good kisser because of the way his mouth is or how he talks or something! Shady right?
Yesterday Ryan calls and says that he wants to hang out. So he and Zach come over and pick up me and Huff and we go to Acme to piss off Kate and Mark but they weren't there. So we go to his house. When we played pool he seemed psyched to have me on his team, he was first to tackle me in the pillow fight, and sat next to me during Half Baked until Zach layed on top of me and Huff. But Kelly called and told me we had dance so we left to take me home. When we got here he pulled me aside and said he just liked me as a friend because he feared that if we went out and somthing did happen it would ruin what we got. Meanwhile Huff asks Zach to find out if Elise and Ryan did hook up. I immidately call Elise and she can talk to me fine until I ask her if her and Ryan hooked up. She says uhhhhhhhhhh lemme call you back. She does which surprised me and said she didn't. I know she did by then so we call Zach. Huff called and could hear Ryan arguing with him in the background not to tell. But Zach says "What the fuck am I supposed to tell her, yeah something happened". I'm furious at the lies.. so I call her back and get her voicemail so I leave a message saying something along the lines about how she lied to me, we're through, and she should go be friends with Kate because SHE'S JUST LIKE HER! I think that part hurt most of all, but it's true.
When I got home from dance Ryan's FRIEND called me.. (are we back in middle school and I wasn't told?). He tells me that I shouldn't be mad at Elise and shouldn't end our friendship over it, blah blah blah. When I ask why Ryan didn't call he said that Ryan couldn't bring himself to talk to me.. smells like guilt to me. So the kid just argued the same point over and over and I had a million reasons not to listen.
Me and Huff stayed up and talked.. she can always make me feel better and I don't know what I would do without her.
So in the end I realized that if I could I wouldn't go back and befriend Elise again knowing how it would end. I guess the good times just weren't good enough. But I want to contradict something I said earlier in this entry.. she's not like Kate.... SHE'S WORSE.
Elise and I hung out Monday night. She kind of tricked me into it because she said lets hang out and when I got there it was oh by the way were meeting the guy I like at Cheeburger Cheeburger in Frazer. On the way over she told me that she played 21 questions with Ryan and how he was a keeper and I was so lucky to have him. Then she says that she asked him about his shlong and it was huge and perfect, 7 inches and big around. I asked if she saw it she said yes. I actually thanked her... I THANKED HER FOR FUCKING THE BOY I LIKED!! I feel so dumb right now. I thought I was thanking her for setting stuff up for me between me and him. But no. She just kept saying about how she thinks hes a good kisser because of the way his mouth is or how he talks or something! Shady right?
Yesterday Ryan calls and says that he wants to hang out. So he and Zach come over and pick up me and Huff and we go to Acme to piss off Kate and Mark but they weren't there. So we go to his house. When we played pool he seemed psyched to have me on his team, he was first to tackle me in the pillow fight, and sat next to me during Half Baked until Zach layed on top of me and Huff. But Kelly called and told me we had dance so we left to take me home. When we got here he pulled me aside and said he just liked me as a friend because he feared that if we went out and somthing did happen it would ruin what we got. Meanwhile Huff asks Zach to find out if Elise and Ryan did hook up. I immidately call Elise and she can talk to me fine until I ask her if her and Ryan hooked up. She says uhhhhhhhhhh lemme call you back. She does which surprised me and said she didn't. I know she did by then so we call Zach. Huff called and could hear Ryan arguing with him in the background not to tell. But Zach says "What the fuck am I supposed to tell her, yeah something happened". I'm furious at the lies.. so I call her back and get her voicemail so I leave a message saying something along the lines about how she lied to me, we're through, and she should go be friends with Kate because SHE'S JUST LIKE HER! I think that part hurt most of all, but it's true.
When I got home from dance Ryan's FRIEND called me.. (are we back in middle school and I wasn't told?). He tells me that I shouldn't be mad at Elise and shouldn't end our friendship over it, blah blah blah. When I ask why Ryan didn't call he said that Ryan couldn't bring himself to talk to me.. smells like guilt to me. So the kid just argued the same point over and over and I had a million reasons not to listen.
Me and Huff stayed up and talked.. she can always make me feel better and I don't know what I would do without her.
So in the end I realized that if I could I wouldn't go back and befriend Elise again knowing how it would end. I guess the good times just weren't good enough. But I want to contradict something I said earlier in this entry.. she's not like Kate.... SHE'S WORSE.