annoyanncee
the same things that make me upset now, are the same things that made me upset when i was 13, 7, 5, 11, 8, and every other year inbetween. what about me sucks so bad that i can't have one group, one constant group of friends that stays the same. like 4 amazing friends, or even one best friend. it doen's really matter. but i would like someone to care equally, for me to be their number one person, and vise versa. i don't know, i think i am just getting sick of this whole society based upon lists and group, and having to meet a standard. like personality wise i don't totally suck. sorry i'm not a size 5 and fit into amazing clothes, and the fact that i'm not that "cute" but like this whole naming groups of friends thing is dirving me absolutely crazy. i'm sick of being left out. like when you think you and someone are friends, it should be as simple as that, nothing else, but i'm sick of not getting invited or just plain old being ditched. after 15 years, it is getting a little tiring. yes i know i have friends, and i know that i'm not the biggest loner, but i'm sick of getting treated like i don't totally belong. but its not about having alot of friends/acquaintances, its about jsut having that one group.
sooo bah that is my vention session, sorry if you read it.
now i feel better, i need to stop focusing on the negativity
in my life, blahh i don't know anymore.
sooo bah that is my vention session, sorry if you read it.
now i feel better, i need to stop focusing on the negativity
in my life, blahh i don't know anymore.