It'll be okay. It has to be.
I just kept telling myself, things could be so much better. Things suck, yes, but they always will one way or another. Things are gonna be up and down, and if I can accept it and find a way to get through the suck without losing it, it will be good, and things will get even better.
And instead of telling myself things could be so much better, realize that things could be so much worse. Amd as long as I do the best that I can and take care of myself, it will be okay.
Because I have both of my parents close but not too close, and I have Josh, and I have Skyy and soon the baby, and a pretty good relationship with my sister if somewhat judged, only somewhat. And I have Katie, and her mom, and n-word, and various other friends who can understand my situation and not make me feel like a jerk and only realize that I'm at a point where I need some extra help. It's not easy by myself. None of it is. But I manage. And if i can only hold my head above water long enough for us to get our shit together, I can put all this behind me and not have to feel like a jerk for needing help.
Things are about to get a lot harder. I've prepared as much as I possibly can. I'm not a very religious person, but I do believe in God and if he's there, may he help me keep my head and my sanity.
And instead of telling myself things could be so much better, realize that things could be so much worse. Amd as long as I do the best that I can and take care of myself, it will be okay.
Because I have both of my parents close but not too close, and I have Josh, and I have Skyy and soon the baby, and a pretty good relationship with my sister if somewhat judged, only somewhat. And I have Katie, and her mom, and n-word, and various other friends who can understand my situation and not make me feel like a jerk and only realize that I'm at a point where I need some extra help. It's not easy by myself. None of it is. But I manage. And if i can only hold my head above water long enough for us to get our shit together, I can put all this behind me and not have to feel like a jerk for needing help.
Things are about to get a lot harder. I've prepared as much as I possibly can. I'm not a very religious person, but I do believe in God and if he's there, may he help me keep my head and my sanity.